A little bit to say?
Here's a little bit...I haven't wrote in here in a long time.
Well...I just can't figure out what is wrong with me. I finally explained to Ryan why I act the way I do. I'm depressed, I don't want to be alive. I hate it. When he is away from me I get scared that I'm going to snap because he's what makes me happy. He puts a smile on my face . I told him how I get scared when I think about him being with his friends and seeing other girls and how I'm scared that he may leave me for someone else. He put his hands on my cheeks and he kissed me and told me that he loves me and only me. I just kept crying. I really love him. I get sick thinking about not being with him. You are my only one. I love you Ryan.
I know my friends are mad at me because I supposivly spend to much time with him...but maybe you would understand if it was you. I don't know, it just sucks when my friends get mad. Like tomorrow, Becky wanted me to bring her to Portsmouth (Which my mom said no to....but i'll explain that either after or to Becky) but Ryan and I are having a problem right now and tomorrow is the only day we can talk about it because he works at 7 and we want to talk when we have clear heads.
I've been so cranky lately. I'm honestly beginning to think I'm pregnant. I missed my pill for almost 3 days in a row and I was with Ryan those days. I almost wouldn't be suprised. I guess I'll know in about a week. Or maybe sooner...
I suppose I don't have much to say other then Becky and James should go out and so should Ashli and Chris...That'd make me sooooo happy!
Well...I just can't figure out what is wrong with me. I finally explained to Ryan why I act the way I do. I'm depressed, I don't want to be alive. I hate it. When he is away from me I get scared that I'm going to snap because he's what makes me happy. He puts a smile on my face . I told him how I get scared when I think about him being with his friends and seeing other girls and how I'm scared that he may leave me for someone else. He put his hands on my cheeks and he kissed me and told me that he loves me and only me. I just kept crying. I really love him. I get sick thinking about not being with him. You are my only one. I love you Ryan.
I know my friends are mad at me because I supposivly spend to much time with him...but maybe you would understand if it was you. I don't know, it just sucks when my friends get mad. Like tomorrow, Becky wanted me to bring her to Portsmouth (Which my mom said no to....but i'll explain that either after or to Becky) but Ryan and I are having a problem right now and tomorrow is the only day we can talk about it because he works at 7 and we want to talk when we have clear heads.
I've been so cranky lately. I'm honestly beginning to think I'm pregnant. I missed my pill for almost 3 days in a row and I was with Ryan those days. I almost wouldn't be suprised. I guess I'll know in about a week. Or maybe sooner...
I suppose I don't have much to say other then Becky and James should go out and so should Ashli and Chris...That'd make me sooooo happy!