hells bells...
So I had my tiny interview yesterday, and basically they'll have to check on what the starting rate is, that's bullshit, if your not going to give someone anything close to what they are asking for then why put what you want for a starting rate, 7.50 is not that high for someone with 4 years of bueaty care experience, not to mention has worked june sales, january sales, been in charge of stock, and been a sales lead for crying out loud. And something along the lines of 6 hours. It really does suck. But I'm not happy at the other job either, so I just need to work myself back up the ladder, god took me 4 years to get where I had been, I mean people warned me I wouldn't just go back to what I was, but damn, I can't afford to spend another 4 years kissing ass to be back where I was then end up being misserable all over again. Don't mind me, this whole situatoin is just crap.
And I got my schedule last night, good god I got like 40 hours at Build a Bear. I'm going to want to scream, or jump off the roof. Whichever comes first. They certinally are going to work me to death on my last week, although in reatlty I really shouldn't even be work friday and saturday, beings my last day is technically on thursday. I should ask Erin if she realises that I quit, LOL. That would be funny continue to be put on the schedule. I mean on some level I could just stay one day a week. But it would have to be a Sunday, no that wouldn't work, i'd hardley get to see the people I want to see. I'll just have to go visit on breaks and such. Not that BBW will put me on much to start, I know hours will pick up once a June Sale comes around, and mothers day. Although I need to let them know I won't be there for over a week in June because of my grandmother going away.
Someone build a time machine and send me back. LOL. You know I was thinking one day, and I realize that I always run. When bullshit arises, I run and then I try and rationalize every decision I make with myself and everyone else to make it seem ok. And it's probably really not you know. Like with BBW leaving, well it just felt right at the time, and I was embarrassed, and I realized how incrediably stupid it was, I wanted to move up, I had the chance and I ran because of I don't even know why. I just wanted out. And now I want back in. Really build a time machine to take me back to november of 05. with all my memories, hell I'll knock myself out, bullshit my way through that little meeting. But ok here comes that talking myself into and out of things again, that I needed to leave, to see just how much I loved it. I do miss it, I just feel like this is some slap in the face, you know, And what really worries me is what if I don't even get back what I was making. Imagine going from 6.93 to less then that again. I think i'd have to be like I really can't take that, I was barely surviving on that. And I know that you can get that starting wage upped based on experience. Don't give me that bull.
Well today i'm getting a hair cut, and I'm going blonde, i'm sick of being a brunette, not having so much fun as one. LOL. And then it's off to dinner with my dad. And I really want to get the next book in the Dresden Files, I finished the 2nd one last night, I couldn't put it down, I was reading it at work for 4 hours, and came home and was up till 2 reading it. I am all reading all the time now again. I have like 2 new Fruits Basket to read, a new Charmed book, and an InuYasha. It's sad really I just can't stop now. Which is good it's been so long since i've read books like this. Hell I carry 2 with me everywhere.
And I got my schedule last night, good god I got like 40 hours at Build a Bear. I'm going to want to scream, or jump off the roof. Whichever comes first. They certinally are going to work me to death on my last week, although in reatlty I really shouldn't even be work friday and saturday, beings my last day is technically on thursday. I should ask Erin if she realises that I quit, LOL. That would be funny continue to be put on the schedule. I mean on some level I could just stay one day a week. But it would have to be a Sunday, no that wouldn't work, i'd hardley get to see the people I want to see. I'll just have to go visit on breaks and such. Not that BBW will put me on much to start, I know hours will pick up once a June Sale comes around, and mothers day. Although I need to let them know I won't be there for over a week in June because of my grandmother going away.
Someone build a time machine and send me back. LOL. You know I was thinking one day, and I realize that I always run. When bullshit arises, I run and then I try and rationalize every decision I make with myself and everyone else to make it seem ok. And it's probably really not you know. Like with BBW leaving, well it just felt right at the time, and I was embarrassed, and I realized how incrediably stupid it was, I wanted to move up, I had the chance and I ran because of I don't even know why. I just wanted out. And now I want back in. Really build a time machine to take me back to november of 05. with all my memories, hell I'll knock myself out, bullshit my way through that little meeting. But ok here comes that talking myself into and out of things again, that I needed to leave, to see just how much I loved it. I do miss it, I just feel like this is some slap in the face, you know, And what really worries me is what if I don't even get back what I was making. Imagine going from 6.93 to less then that again. I think i'd have to be like I really can't take that, I was barely surviving on that. And I know that you can get that starting wage upped based on experience. Don't give me that bull.
Well today i'm getting a hair cut, and I'm going blonde, i'm sick of being a brunette, not having so much fun as one. LOL. And then it's off to dinner with my dad. And I really want to get the next book in the Dresden Files, I finished the 2nd one last night, I couldn't put it down, I was reading it at work for 4 hours, and came home and was up till 2 reading it. I am all reading all the time now again. I have like 2 new Fruits Basket to read, a new Charmed book, and an InuYasha. It's sad really I just can't stop now. Which is good it's been so long since i've read books like this. Hell I carry 2 with me everywhere.