Seems like the Lord gave all the easy parts away

[charmedboi82]

Things have been moving relatively quickly around here I guess. Time's going by pretty quickly, and I'm trying to be okay about everything. I'm going to miss someone really special really soon. Of course, the missing has already started. I'm trying not to be sad, but I have other things to be sad about, too. I was in the bathroom at work yesterday, had just finished washing my hands and was about to leave. I really just wanted to cry and basically started to. I wouldn't really let myself do it. I really just wanted to stay in there and hide and cry for a couple of minutes, but I really wouldn't let myself. I pushed on and left. I don't think there's any harm in crying (obviously, if you know me), but I also feel like it's not the time, like there's a lot coming up that'll be more appropriate, like I have no reason to cry until those things happen. Not related to the missing, just to personal things physically inside of me.

It's a good feeling when you love someone. I'd rather love someone than be in love. I think the other person benefits from this more as well.

I think I'm going to do things for myself today...... little things that make me happy or need to be taken care of: straightening up, grooming, etc. I've already started the music and realized anew that I have a lot of songs about love (happy and sad, etc., then again, most songs are about love) but almost none of them can be said about my life. Only the most general of songs can be applied to my life. Any of them with any details always fail to be about me, more reason to write my own.

Things haven't always been easy, but I've had it a lot easier than many folks. Body's doing its thing right now, "great"...