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I've been at work for an hour. I'm bored. really bored. ben thought he had to work today. thank god he doesnt. he annoys me. a lot. he treas me like im an idiot or something. like i dont know how to use a computer or handle money or do my job in general. i cant stand it when people under-estimate me. it doesn make me want to prove them wrong it makes me want to knock them out and that's not very healthy now is it?
aside from books im all set for school next semester thanks to a little help from lisa. she's an absolute angel. she gets me. i get her. there's no complication with us. i don't feel like i have to hold back or be someone that im not. I can be weird and loud and blunt and crazy and emotional and it's fine. Im sure we annoy eachoher equally but it's never anything bad. it's the usual shit. i hope our friendship doesn't turn out like so many others ive had. i really have no social life anymore. it's sad. i connect wih friends on the internet but the way my schedule works, it's hard to get together with anyone anymore. people i thought would be good friends for at least a few more yeas have disappeared. i wonder what it is about me that pushes people away like that. i know i can be a real bitch sometimes but that's just because i don't lke to sugar-coat the truth and the truth can hurt. people miscontrue my honesty as being mean. id rather be honest than lie.
he's neato. he doesnt treat me like a fragile doll like most guys but when i need him to, he does.
aside from books im all set for school next semester thanks to a little help from lisa. she's an absolute angel. she gets me. i get her. there's no complication with us. i don't feel like i have to hold back or be someone that im not. I can be weird and loud and blunt and crazy and emotional and it's fine. Im sure we annoy eachoher equally but it's never anything bad. it's the usual shit. i hope our friendship doesn't turn out like so many others ive had. i really have no social life anymore. it's sad. i connect wih friends on the internet but the way my schedule works, it's hard to get together with anyone anymore. people i thought would be good friends for at least a few more yeas have disappeared. i wonder what it is about me that pushes people away like that. i know i can be a real bitch sometimes but that's just because i don't lke to sugar-coat the truth and the truth can hurt. people miscontrue my honesty as being mean. id rather be honest than lie.
he's neato. he doesnt treat me like a fragile doll like most guys but when i need him to, he does.