history is entertaining
I find it ever so intersting now that the guy I thought was a 'knight in shining armour' was really just a dumb teenager like everyone else. Of course, not everyone else goes off to sleep with your best friend behind your back. Of course, I guess I get the dumb teenager thing too for not learning from my relationship with Tim.Sure, I recovered, but I didn't learn anything since the next time I opened myself up was the crazy convoluted relationship with Bri. It's been 1 year and 3 months now since the last time I let Brianna hit me, or slap me around or anything. And its only in the past week or so that I've felt really strong again with any sort of real reliability.
In anycase, I still find it entertaing that I almost let myself die from that betrayal which, to be fair, was abusive but not shattering when I was able to stand so strong 3 years before through a cult and a rape....
It's harder to get over a betrayal by a lover than one by a person you are simply subbordinate to I guess.
I still feel like its backwards some how though - the way I responded.
In anycase, I think the point was healing... or the time it takes... or learning from your mistakes? Something like that I guess.
Lump it all together and you get a girl who is finally ready to move on. So let's move.
In anycase, I still find it entertaing that I almost let myself die from that betrayal which, to be fair, was abusive but not shattering when I was able to stand so strong 3 years before through a cult and a rape....
It's harder to get over a betrayal by a lover than one by a person you are simply subbordinate to I guess.
I still feel like its backwards some how though - the way I responded.
In anycase, I think the point was healing... or the time it takes... or learning from your mistakes? Something like that I guess.
Lump it all together and you get a girl who is finally ready to move on. So let's move.