Her

[charliestark]

It's not like I don't know it won't work out between the two of us.
I am well aware of that fact.
It's just she is so nice.
The nicest thing I have ever met.
I really wish my smile was her favourite kind of smile.
I really wish my style was her favoutite kind of style.
But i liked my best friend, one of them, before her, and told her.
And then,
she told me that she likes her very best friend.
I know it's true.
I can tell.
It just reallyreallyreallyreallyreally sucks.
I get little pangs talking about it and they are so ridiculously deflating.
I hate this.
But... I am not going to stop being friends with her
just because I screwed up.
If I suffer, whatever.
I need to learn who is available and who isn't all over again I guess.
It's just she so nice,
and her hugs make me feel so secure.