Private thoughts
November 13, 2001
I've been having horrible nightmares since finding the mask in Nicholas's desk. I can't stop thinking about it. I just keep seeing cold eyes behind the mask, just like during the war. I think I love Nicholas, but I'm terrified too. I know I convinced myself that night I stayed that he couldn't be one of them, but how can I be so sure? He's so different than I thought they could be, but many of them were able to return to regular life without anyone being the wiser. So what if he's one of them? What do you do when you might love someone, but they may have done something so terrible? I just don't know how to reconcile this.
Mum,
I really need to talk. Would you have time, or do you want to do it here? I know you and Dad had a fantastic weekend and I don't want to ruin it but I had some things happen and I could really use a chat.
I've been having horrible nightmares since finding the mask in Nicholas's desk. I can't stop thinking about it. I just keep seeing cold eyes behind the mask, just like during the war. I think I love Nicholas, but I'm terrified too. I know I convinced myself that night I stayed that he couldn't be one of them, but how can I be so sure? He's so different than I thought they could be, but many of them were able to return to regular life without anyone being the wiser. So what if he's one of them? What do you do when you might love someone, but they may have done something so terrible? I just don't know how to reconcile this.
Mum,
I really need to talk. Would you have time, or do you want to do it here? I know you and Dad had a fantastic weekend and I don't want to ruin it but I had some things happen and I could really use a chat.