Im not very good at this..._dumb_fucks_March 24 2005, 15:10:20 UTC
Your disgusted. Your through. My cries and sorrows dont leave your room. But its true...all ive done is painfully love you. My feelings are playing games, i dont know what to do, because you were the person that made my pain be through. A lot has happend. And we then grew. Our relationship means more to me than it ever did to you. Its not a sin for you to like someone else. You havent committed any crime. The thing that hurt the most is that you dont want any further friendship with mine. Did you learn something? I hope you did...that is what seems most important. You have a lifetime ahead of you and i wish you my best. Youve been my best friend and now im a croud. So no worries for me now. Im thankful for the time Ive spent with you. Youve taught me so much...more than i knew. I have to be greatful for what i have in the present; which is nothing. nothing without you. and im sorry that there is nothing i can do.
In other words.
Yes, you hurt me...but hey, shit happens. Taking a break probably is good. But i didnt want for it to end with me and you.
"Besides the bee doesnt have any real friends and doesnt want them either. If the flowers were the bees best friend they wouldnt have been so rude to him last night, althought the bee knows he said some stuff aswell. Doesnt matter though, hes over it and doesnt need them. Doesnt want them either."
If thats what you want its fine. but i didnt want to just leave it at that. I think that is the thing that is hurting the most. because ive never had this good of a friend. I came to this school knowing that shit would happen. and it just is. I became your friend knowing what i was getting into. but i wanted to be apart of it. Im sorry if im not enough to be your friend...youll just going to have to find another pain in the ass like me that you can stand ;)
i wish you luck in all that you do. and rememeber, i will always love you.
Re: Im not very good at this..._dumb_fucks_March 24 2005, 16:17:59 UTC
ok so on me and shelbys lj I kinda blew up a little on the "bee" I just want to apologize for that and i want to say that colin i am your best friend ( well one of them) and i do love you sooo much! i dont want it to end like this but i'm not going to beg. If what you want is to not be friends then thats whats gonna happen. last night was one big depressing emo party! but we can all learn to put it behind us!!!! I do agree with the taking a break thing i think it will be the healthiest decision of all but i don't mean to take a break forevor!!!!! I hope that our friendships dont end on this note because it would just be plain stupid and i think we all know that!!!!! This little argument is nothing to loose your friends over. Especially not the type of friends that we are!!!! i can truly see us as friends years from now. you know me and shelby setting our house on fire in new york and you being there helping us try and put it out!!!!!! lol Lets not end it all here we've shared soo much togethor and we've been through soo much i dont think it's worth it to let this get in between us!!!! I reaally encourage you Colin to think about it a little more before we just let it all go. think about it for a while and if you still come to the conclusion that you don't want me and shelby as friends anymore then i guess we'll just have to deal with it... Just remeber that I love you... We love you and we will miss you horribly if you leave us and you know we will be soo lost without you... so Remeber we love you alot and it's pretty much up to you just think about it!!!!!
My cries and sorrows dont leave your room.
But its true...all ive done is painfully love you.
My feelings are playing games, i dont know what to do, because you were the person that made my pain be through.
A lot has happend. And we then grew. Our relationship means more to me than it ever did to you.
Its not a sin for you to like someone else. You havent committed any crime.
The thing that hurt the most is that you dont want any further friendship with mine.
Did you learn something? I hope you did...that is what seems most important.
You have a lifetime ahead of you and i wish you my best. Youve been my best friend and now im a croud. So no worries for me now. Im thankful for the time Ive spent with you. Youve taught me so much...more than i knew. I have to be greatful for what i have in the present; which is nothing. nothing without you. and im sorry that there is nothing i can do.
In other words.
Yes, you hurt me...but hey, shit happens. Taking a break probably is good. But i didnt want for it to end with me and you.
"Besides the bee doesnt have any real friends and doesnt want them either. If the flowers were the bees best friend they wouldnt have been so rude to him last night, althought the bee knows he said some stuff aswell. Doesnt matter though, hes over it and doesnt need them. Doesnt want them either."
If thats what you want its fine. but i didnt want to just leave it at that.
I think that is the thing that is hurting the most. because ive never had this good of a friend.
I came to this school knowing that shit would happen. and it just is.
I became your friend knowing what i was getting into. but i wanted to be apart of it. Im sorry if im not enough to be your friend...youll just going to have to find another pain in the ass like me that you can stand ;)
i wish you luck in all that you do.
and rememeber, i will always love you.
-Shelby
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You said that you dont want to be friends anymore...yet, you write this...and it seems like you care. but maybe im wrong.
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It doesnt really matter how fast your going or how good your looking if your headed in the wrong direction.
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Just remeber that I love you... We love you and we will miss you horribly if you leave us and you know we will be soo lost without you... so Remeber we love you alot and it's pretty much up to you just think about it!!!!!
Love you so so so soso so much -Ashli
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