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I was going to post this as an apology and also to tell her that
shes not what she thinks she is and why....But instead
of saying I'm sorry, I'm going to say I'm sorry and throw in a song with it.
I didnt do anything but I am sorry for the tears that this mixup has caused.
All i was last night was saying how i feel and i was put down for it.
So if you cant say how u feel around your best friends who can you
say it to? Everything in this is rap song is true.
Even the part about how I'm a horrible person
because thats true too.
Especially the part about her thinking shes something
shes not, thats very true. Shes not rebound at all,
there is no reason for me to hurt her like that.
I'm not that heartless. It wasnt out of pitty, and it wasnt
rebound. It was a normal feeling that sometimes happens.
Sick to My Stomach by- Colin Gilliard
verse1
Ive never been more disgusted in my life
and I know the things I did just weren’t right.
But I'm sorry I had no control over what I was doin
but it’s so simple the way through life I'm movin.
You got me out of the worst times my very best of friends,
but I didn’t know that it would come to such a dramatic end.
I ruined it, the one stable thing I had in my life and
at times I loose sight on the things that are right.
I'm sorry that I hurt you or whoever else it just might be
but in the end the answer is there and is plain to see.
That I suck and that I'm wrong and that Ive been playin myself
and playin u for too long. I'm never going to forgive myself for
committing such a horrible crime and only in the right mind
I cant even find, the words to describe how much I hate
to be alive because inside we've both died. I make me sick
to my stomach and no matter how hard I try to run from it,
I’ll never escape sound of your tears, your pain, and your cries driving
Me insane. Your name ringing through, echoing through my brain.
I could never forgive myself for what Ive done I’m sick to my stomach
And from your cries I’m on the run.
Chorus
I should be locked up, done with, thrown away the key
I hope what I see isn’t really me.
I suck and I’m sorry for being such and @$$ and I know
That Ive hurt you in the past.
There’s no way I could forgive myself for what I did
I don’t even think that I should live. I don’t want
to be, I’m low and even below it
I hate myself, and I’m sick to my stomach.
Verse2
You think you’re off the rebound and nothing
More yet I see you and that’s not what I stand for.
I would never do anything to purposely hurt you
And you should know that what I say is true.
You are not what you think but what you are I know.
You are not rebound look at the evidence to show.
What I felt for you was real, the realest it can be,
But I didn’t like you enough and that was for me.
I liked and her at the same time so rebound shouldn’t
Even be in your mind. If you still want to believe then
That’s your wish but that fact that I made you sad
Makes me sick to my stomach.
Chorus
I should be locked up, done with, thrown away the key
I hope what I see isn’t really me.
I suck and I’m sorry for being such and @$$ and I know
That Ive hurt you in the past.
There’s no way I could forgive myself for what I did
I don’t even think that I should live. I don’t want
to be, I’m low and even below it
I hate myself, and I’m sick to my stomach.
Reapt.
shes not what she thinks she is and why....But instead
of saying I'm sorry, I'm going to say I'm sorry and throw in a song with it.
I didnt do anything but I am sorry for the tears that this mixup has caused.
All i was last night was saying how i feel and i was put down for it.
So if you cant say how u feel around your best friends who can you
say it to? Everything in this is rap song is true.
Even the part about how I'm a horrible person
because thats true too.
Especially the part about her thinking shes something
shes not, thats very true. Shes not rebound at all,
there is no reason for me to hurt her like that.
I'm not that heartless. It wasnt out of pitty, and it wasnt
rebound. It was a normal feeling that sometimes happens.
Sick to My Stomach by- Colin Gilliard
verse1
Ive never been more disgusted in my life
and I know the things I did just weren’t right.
But I'm sorry I had no control over what I was doin
but it’s so simple the way through life I'm movin.
You got me out of the worst times my very best of friends,
but I didn’t know that it would come to such a dramatic end.
I ruined it, the one stable thing I had in my life and
at times I loose sight on the things that are right.
I'm sorry that I hurt you or whoever else it just might be
but in the end the answer is there and is plain to see.
That I suck and that I'm wrong and that Ive been playin myself
and playin u for too long. I'm never going to forgive myself for
committing such a horrible crime and only in the right mind
I cant even find, the words to describe how much I hate
to be alive because inside we've both died. I make me sick
to my stomach and no matter how hard I try to run from it,
I’ll never escape sound of your tears, your pain, and your cries driving
Me insane. Your name ringing through, echoing through my brain.
I could never forgive myself for what Ive done I’m sick to my stomach
And from your cries I’m on the run.
Chorus
I should be locked up, done with, thrown away the key
I hope what I see isn’t really me.
I suck and I’m sorry for being such and @$$ and I know
That Ive hurt you in the past.
There’s no way I could forgive myself for what I did
I don’t even think that I should live. I don’t want
to be, I’m low and even below it
I hate myself, and I’m sick to my stomach.
Verse2
You think you’re off the rebound and nothing
More yet I see you and that’s not what I stand for.
I would never do anything to purposely hurt you
And you should know that what I say is true.
You are not what you think but what you are I know.
You are not rebound look at the evidence to show.
What I felt for you was real, the realest it can be,
But I didn’t like you enough and that was for me.
I liked and her at the same time so rebound shouldn’t
Even be in your mind. If you still want to believe then
That’s your wish but that fact that I made you sad
Makes me sick to my stomach.
Chorus
I should be locked up, done with, thrown away the key
I hope what I see isn’t really me.
I suck and I’m sorry for being such and @$$ and I know
That Ive hurt you in the past.
There’s no way I could forgive myself for what I did
I don’t even think that I should live. I don’t want
to be, I’m low and even below it
I hate myself, and I’m sick to my stomach.
Reapt.