I think I've finally figured it out...
and then it hit me like a ton of bricks. I'm severely co-dependent. Infatuated with being in love and having a relationship. Addictive behavior was ruining my life. It had to stop.
I stopped drinking.
I stopped smoking.
I stopped all addictive behavior.
I need to prove to myself that I can cope without looking to escape.
I can face my fears head on.
It is the ultimate test.
So, I've been hiking and exercising. Haven't touched booze or drugs for 2 wks. I know it doesn't seem that long...but between all the situations I've been into lately, I have proven myself strong!
I can do this. I can beat this co-dependent behavior. I can detach myself from being in love with the IDEA of having a relationship with Chris and finally move on!
I can do it!
I know I can.
On the wagon 'til mid-December.
Good bye, fog!
Hello, clarity!! :)
I stopped drinking.
I stopped smoking.
I stopped all addictive behavior.
I need to prove to myself that I can cope without looking to escape.
I can face my fears head on.
It is the ultimate test.
So, I've been hiking and exercising. Haven't touched booze or drugs for 2 wks. I know it doesn't seem that long...but between all the situations I've been into lately, I have proven myself strong!
I can do this. I can beat this co-dependent behavior. I can detach myself from being in love with the IDEA of having a relationship with Chris and finally move on!
I can do it!
I know I can.
On the wagon 'til mid-December.
Good bye, fog!
Hello, clarity!! :)