I usually keep on walking...
It's been a strange few days - I don't know quite how I feel, really. There's just this transitional type place I might be in, this limbo while I try to figure out the next steps. I don't want to write right now- it hasn't been a high creative period. I have a few ideas for Michael-stories, but they don't seem to find their way to words. I need to get back to a routine with that. I haven't been drinking my water - I don't know why, but I always seem to feel better when I'm drinking water. Lately though, I've been kind of dehydrating. Definitely not enough water- I don't remember the last time I had a nice glass of ice water. It's not like I'm drinking sugary bad things, but Crystal Light type things and diet soda still aren't as good for me as water. I haven't been walking around enough, either. Part of the malaise I feel is personal - not knowing whether or not I want to continue working at the same things I've been working at, not knowing what our financial future will hold, feeling out of sorts with certain family members who have been less-than-kind. But part of it is just a general feeling of uneasiness about the state of the economy, the state of the environment, and the state of the world.
I just haven't had much of an urge to talk about how I feel because I don't know how I feel to talk about it. I need to get over the blah and work on a column and a book review and get a list of music sites together as promised for one of our bandies, but I'm just not in the writing mood. Maybe tomorrow - I'm going to Olive Garden with mom, and maybe that'll put me in better spirits. Rick is coming to visit us next week, which will be nice - and we'll see Agnes too. Which reminds me, I'm supposed to be looking for stuff to do up in that area too. Also tomorrow.
I just haven't had much of an urge to talk about how I feel because I don't know how I feel to talk about it. I need to get over the blah and work on a column and a book review and get a list of music sites together as promised for one of our bandies, but I'm just not in the writing mood. Maybe tomorrow - I'm going to Olive Garden with mom, and maybe that'll put me in better spirits. Rick is coming to visit us next week, which will be nice - and we'll see Agnes too. Which reminds me, I'm supposed to be looking for stuff to do up in that area too. Also tomorrow.