Sep 06, 2006 00:32
Apparently I'm rediculous.
I have issues with my best friend telling me that when she comes to KU this Saturday she's already made plans to hang out with my exboyfriend instead of with me. I cried and said, "A! HIS FUCKING NAME IS TOM! HE STOPPED BEING TOMMY WHEN WE BROKE UP IN APRIL!" Ahem. To continue to question her why she felt it was so necessary for her to befriend and to get close to my ex boyfriend. At which she questioned me why I didn't want to be with him anymore.
Why is it that people need "He picks his nose at stop lights when he thinks nobody is looking but every one really is." reasons for why relationships split? Cliche, but sometimes people just grow apart. As people get older, values change, goals change, the person we thought we once were changes. This is not necessarily a bad thing. Sometimes people change for the worse.
Like my girlfriend Mandy. She threw away a college degree to join a cult-ish chuch group in which she will spend the next 10 months and exorbident amounts of money studying the bible according to this group, living with them and having little else contact with her former life. This is not such a good change.
But some changes are good. My brother John broke up with his girlfriend Mizti. First off, that 'sa stripper name and we don't need chlyamidia to run in our family. As a Kisthardt member I can say for a fact we enjoy being STD free. Not to say it wouldn't be nice to have a nice, high steady income but honestly - I hate Mizti's mother. She's a fat bitch who yelled at me one time. This Mizti made my brother lie, steal and stop talking to us. But now my brother has told the little bug eyed bitch, buh bye. He's now a varsity soccer player with good grades and now a good relationship with his family. FUCK YOU MIZTI. See? A good change.
Sometimes these changes come from within and sometimes they come put on us. My child development class calls it "Active" and "Passive". Change that comes from within is called Active and in my case, my decision to brake up with Tom came from myself. No other reason. Things just changed between us. I'm no longer attracted to him. We still have things in common and he knows my life story, but there's been a shift that I don't care to 'fix', mainly because it's not broken. Then there is change that comes from another enacting force. For example, "He farts in bed." or "He thinks im fat." Whichever, but still the point that the decision for the break up did not come from within, but was more of a quialitative change is what "passiveness" is defined.
I'm sorry, Meagan, but I can't tell you why I don't want to be with Tom anymore. It's not anything he does, it's not the things he says. There is no blame or fingers to point.
Really, it's not you, it's me.