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Was gonna say something somewhat meaningful but am too tired and sickly feeling to keep up the pretense of writing intelligently.
I think it was something about how I hate enablers and how when I make sarcastic commentary and people laugh, it doesn't make it funny. Sometimes I'm really just being an asshole and I'm only laughing because I'm not as nice as people want to believe. Also, it really fucking irritates me when people tell me I'm their favorite, particularly when they're in a position of authority over me and are supposed to at least maintain a facade of impartial judgment. I don't look for friendship in teachers, bosses, or any other person I can reasonably expect to give me an order and uphold certain rules. I am not your buddy, I'm your subordinate. Don't give me that double standard shit; I don't like it and it's not reasonable or kind to hold me to those kind of expectations. Compassionate leadership doesn't require making exceptions to rules nor does it condone favoritism. It's stupid, confusing and ultimately a worse betrayal of trust than being a total jerk would have been.
Also, being ill makes me cranky. Very cranky.
I think it was something about how I hate enablers and how when I make sarcastic commentary and people laugh, it doesn't make it funny. Sometimes I'm really just being an asshole and I'm only laughing because I'm not as nice as people want to believe. Also, it really fucking irritates me when people tell me I'm their favorite, particularly when they're in a position of authority over me and are supposed to at least maintain a facade of impartial judgment. I don't look for friendship in teachers, bosses, or any other person I can reasonably expect to give me an order and uphold certain rules. I am not your buddy, I'm your subordinate. Don't give me that double standard shit; I don't like it and it's not reasonable or kind to hold me to those kind of expectations. Compassionate leadership doesn't require making exceptions to rules nor does it condone favoritism. It's stupid, confusing and ultimately a worse betrayal of trust than being a total jerk would have been.
Also, being ill makes me cranky. Very cranky.