its been so long...
its been a while since i've actually written a real entry so i figured might as well give a lil update.. things are finally starting to wind down this semester.. the past couple weeks have been sooo hectic - mostly in the school domain with tests and what not.. classes are goin fine for now..
lately i've been having a lot of mood swings.. i havent had this many this frequently in a while.. i mean i know i have my moments but lately its been REALLY bipolar.. i dont know whats triggering it but the eating habits are goin back to being weird.. u know i'm wondering if this transition between winter and spring has something to do with it.. because around this same time last year i had to rely on my happy pills to keep me balanced.. but i'm not nearly at THAT point right now.. i just dont know what it is.. my mom made a small comment about my outfit the other night and i FLIPPED out... i have been using the "F" word a bit too much lately.. its not appropriate and i know this but it just comes out.. haha like i have terrets or something..
i hate the fact that i dont have a roommate for next fall.. REALLY? y am i soo alone? lol- i need friends.. well perhaps having random roommates will be a good experience.. we shall see...
mist was this past weekend.. i stopped by.. wasnt nearly as organized as last year but i guess thats what ahmed gets for leaving it up to other ppl.. u want something done right, u gotta do it urself.. simple as that. some bitches really pissed me off at the event but i dont wanna think bout that anymore.. i kept my cool there somehow by the grace of god i guess.. my temper tantrums really need to chill.. i'm not a lil kid anymore.. blah.. this summer ought to be interesting to say the least.. my mom is goin to paki for almost the WHOLE summer so GUESS WHO GETS TO BE THE PRETEND MOMMMY???? ooohhhh u got it- MEEEEE.. cooking isnt an issue.. easy. cleaning isnt really that big of a deal either.. the only thing i'm REALLY concerned with is.. how the hell am i going to manage the house, drive the siblings around, have a job, and take classes, all the while making sure theres good fresh food cooked and the house is tidy... REALLY- isnt that a bit much to ask for? and its not like i can expect any1 to pitch in.. selfish bastards.. my siblings are great.. love em.. but when it comes to telling them what to do or team work and cooperation... sometimes things just end up getting rowdy.. we'll c.. hopefully it wont be too bad..
ugh.. ahmeduh just called.. dude i wanna KILL that stupid bitch from this past weekend that upset him.. i said i didnt wanna think about it but now i cant help it.. he has 3 tests this week and BECAUSE of freaking people who cant do shit he devoted all of this attention and time and effort to mist and now the 3 tests that he has this week- hes not ready for them and hasnt been feeling well.. the bitch told him he wasnt doing all he could? MAN FUCK U- do u even FUCKING KNOW WHAT ALL HE HAS DONE? hes a much better person than u'll ever be and god forbid u ever say anything negative to my lil brother again cuz i'll fuckin rip ur heart right outta ur chest and take a big muther fucking bite!!!!!! ARHHHH
lately i've been having a lot of mood swings.. i havent had this many this frequently in a while.. i mean i know i have my moments but lately its been REALLY bipolar.. i dont know whats triggering it but the eating habits are goin back to being weird.. u know i'm wondering if this transition between winter and spring has something to do with it.. because around this same time last year i had to rely on my happy pills to keep me balanced.. but i'm not nearly at THAT point right now.. i just dont know what it is.. my mom made a small comment about my outfit the other night and i FLIPPED out... i have been using the "F" word a bit too much lately.. its not appropriate and i know this but it just comes out.. haha like i have terrets or something..
i hate the fact that i dont have a roommate for next fall.. REALLY? y am i soo alone? lol- i need friends.. well perhaps having random roommates will be a good experience.. we shall see...
mist was this past weekend.. i stopped by.. wasnt nearly as organized as last year but i guess thats what ahmed gets for leaving it up to other ppl.. u want something done right, u gotta do it urself.. simple as that. some bitches really pissed me off at the event but i dont wanna think bout that anymore.. i kept my cool there somehow by the grace of god i guess.. my temper tantrums really need to chill.. i'm not a lil kid anymore.. blah.. this summer ought to be interesting to say the least.. my mom is goin to paki for almost the WHOLE summer so GUESS WHO GETS TO BE THE PRETEND MOMMMY???? ooohhhh u got it- MEEEEE.. cooking isnt an issue.. easy. cleaning isnt really that big of a deal either.. the only thing i'm REALLY concerned with is.. how the hell am i going to manage the house, drive the siblings around, have a job, and take classes, all the while making sure theres good fresh food cooked and the house is tidy... REALLY- isnt that a bit much to ask for? and its not like i can expect any1 to pitch in.. selfish bastards.. my siblings are great.. love em.. but when it comes to telling them what to do or team work and cooperation... sometimes things just end up getting rowdy.. we'll c.. hopefully it wont be too bad..
ugh.. ahmeduh just called.. dude i wanna KILL that stupid bitch from this past weekend that upset him.. i said i didnt wanna think about it but now i cant help it.. he has 3 tests this week and BECAUSE of freaking people who cant do shit he devoted all of this attention and time and effort to mist and now the 3 tests that he has this week- hes not ready for them and hasnt been feeling well.. the bitch told him he wasnt doing all he could? MAN FUCK U- do u even FUCKING KNOW WHAT ALL HE HAS DONE? hes a much better person than u'll ever be and god forbid u ever say anything negative to my lil brother again cuz i'll fuckin rip ur heart right outta ur chest and take a big muther fucking bite!!!!!! ARHHHH