Things just are not going my way.....
If it doesn't make things bad enough I'm running very low on cash my gf decides to tell me that she'll never marry me and that she just isn't very happy. I'v never cared about anyone as much as I have her. I've never had anyone be there for me as much as I have her and I'm losing her. At this point I having nothing left to lose, it's all gone. For me every day feels like it's raining and the sky is always dark. Maybe I'll just go get away from here somehow, I don't know how but I can't deal with where I am. Maybe I'll just buy a one way ticket to some little country in the middle of nowhere. Who knows, it might be fun. No one would really miss me here. Most people at 21 are thinking about families and good fortune toward there future.I guess for me now I don't really care anymore. If everything wants to fall in around me then fine. I'm tired of holding together what I can't just seem to grasp. I give up on happiness, it's a lost cause. Whatever happens now will only be just another day, another week, another year.