Not another one!
I think I seriously need to try and stay up for a whole day, then go to bed an hour or two early the next day… I mean this not being able to go to sleep when lying in the bed for two hours is starting to drive me insane. I’m already insane enough without the added garbage. I could understand if this was one of those things that happened every now and then, but it’s not. Every, single, night, I have this problem.
With that aside, I think I know what I am supposed to do. There is an old saying: “Sometimes you have to take a step backwards to move forward.” I believe that the saying could apply to the position that I am currently in. Perhaps one should never be too proud to admit that perhaps they have advanced to far in life and need to step back so things are in a clearer perspective. While the step I take won’t be drastic, there will be some changes that have to be made. Here’s hoping to a smooth transaction. At least I’ve bounced back from yesterdays low. There were a couple of factors that ensured I bounced right back up though, so I am thankful for those factors…
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You know, there has been something that has always puzzled me in life. Why is it that we, humans, place such a heavy emphasis on how a person looks, acts, feels, and all of those wonderful things? We also love to judge a person for their past. I mean, these things even go as far as to judging a potential partner that someone could find or even a good friend. Like, let’s use a single parent for example. Should they be judged because of what they did when they were young or didn’t think? Why is it that people who don’t have a kid, refrained from those kind of relations, or just the religious zealots always bash or condemn those types? Is a person’s past really that much of a thing, especially if they have changed who they are?
Then we get to the looks issue as well as how a person acts. Sometimes people want another to change because they don’t like the way a person reacts or acts to certain things. Why is it that people try to be so controlling over friends, loved ones, and even strangers? If you take away how they act, is that not taking away a part of them? Then we can get into looks, which people put to heavy of an emphasis on. I’m sure some people will think: “Well, that’s because those who don’t have them don’t understand.” Well excuse me if I am not a shallow person that pays no mind to how a person thinks, feels, or what they are going through. Sorry, but I would rather be as ugly as can be than to think that way. I mean, if that’s all there is to a person… Doesn’t that make them just a shell? I would venture to say so.
I’m sure I could go into the subject on relationships that have one person changing and the other not doing so, but I’m going to avoid that can of worms. I will say this though… If a person demands that another change while they refuse to do so themselves, what is the sense in remaining with that person? Then there is the thought process that someone else can change another. Trust me on this one… You cannot change anyone unless they want to change themselves. You could try until your blue in the face and still have accomplished next to nothing.
Maybe it’s just human nature to fault find, want to change others, and not see the faults that one has of their own? I’m not sure how humans as a whole think, since I only control who I am. It should make you wonder though… Why do we place such a heavy emphasis on superficial things? Are they going to bring us happiness in the end, or will they just leave us feeling shallow when the day is over? I think that one has an easy enough answer to it, so I am going to leave it off there.
I’m going to stop there so I can get back to work and keep my promise that I made. I think one thing everyone should start doing is this: Stop cheating yourself. I think everyone of us is guilty at some point for half-assing something for a reason or an excuse, and we need to stop it. We should always perform at the top of our abilities so that there is no regret for tomorrow. I know that putting all of your heart or effort into something is hard and can be draining… I think at the end of the day you’d feel better about yourself though. I mean, what can it hurt to try?
With that aside, I think I know what I am supposed to do. There is an old saying: “Sometimes you have to take a step backwards to move forward.” I believe that the saying could apply to the position that I am currently in. Perhaps one should never be too proud to admit that perhaps they have advanced to far in life and need to step back so things are in a clearer perspective. While the step I take won’t be drastic, there will be some changes that have to be made. Here’s hoping to a smooth transaction. At least I’ve bounced back from yesterdays low. There were a couple of factors that ensured I bounced right back up though, so I am thankful for those factors…
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You know, there has been something that has always puzzled me in life. Why is it that we, humans, place such a heavy emphasis on how a person looks, acts, feels, and all of those wonderful things? We also love to judge a person for their past. I mean, these things even go as far as to judging a potential partner that someone could find or even a good friend. Like, let’s use a single parent for example. Should they be judged because of what they did when they were young or didn’t think? Why is it that people who don’t have a kid, refrained from those kind of relations, or just the religious zealots always bash or condemn those types? Is a person’s past really that much of a thing, especially if they have changed who they are?
Then we get to the looks issue as well as how a person acts. Sometimes people want another to change because they don’t like the way a person reacts or acts to certain things. Why is it that people try to be so controlling over friends, loved ones, and even strangers? If you take away how they act, is that not taking away a part of them? Then we can get into looks, which people put to heavy of an emphasis on. I’m sure some people will think: “Well, that’s because those who don’t have them don’t understand.” Well excuse me if I am not a shallow person that pays no mind to how a person thinks, feels, or what they are going through. Sorry, but I would rather be as ugly as can be than to think that way. I mean, if that’s all there is to a person… Doesn’t that make them just a shell? I would venture to say so.
I’m sure I could go into the subject on relationships that have one person changing and the other not doing so, but I’m going to avoid that can of worms. I will say this though… If a person demands that another change while they refuse to do so themselves, what is the sense in remaining with that person? Then there is the thought process that someone else can change another. Trust me on this one… You cannot change anyone unless they want to change themselves. You could try until your blue in the face and still have accomplished next to nothing.
Maybe it’s just human nature to fault find, want to change others, and not see the faults that one has of their own? I’m not sure how humans as a whole think, since I only control who I am. It should make you wonder though… Why do we place such a heavy emphasis on superficial things? Are they going to bring us happiness in the end, or will they just leave us feeling shallow when the day is over? I think that one has an easy enough answer to it, so I am going to leave it off there.
I’m going to stop there so I can get back to work and keep my promise that I made. I think one thing everyone should start doing is this: Stop cheating yourself. I think everyone of us is guilty at some point for half-assing something for a reason or an excuse, and we need to stop it. We should always perform at the top of our abilities so that there is no regret for tomorrow. I know that putting all of your heart or effort into something is hard and can be draining… I think at the end of the day you’d feel better about yourself though. I mean, what can it hurt to try?