enjoy the silence
you know what? i'm not pissed today. just a little concerned.
so i was reading some back journals and found my name in a few and to be honest, it really kind of sickens me. so i wanted to clue you in on some things about me that you all might not know.
1. i vent, everyone does. venting doesn't mean you are getting the whole story, most likely not even 75% of the story. and if you weren't there, you really can't understand the situation.
2. i'm more complex than anyone realizes. i'm also constantly changing. daily changing sometimes. i'm trying to be more understanding, less judgemental, strong in my own values, and to keep true to myself. i am human, i will make mistakes. and sometimes the mistakes justify the means, even if it is only for a short while. living with hatred and poison in your mind will kill you, i'm making progress on clearing this out.
3. i care WAY too much about people. and what sucks is that no one realizes this. i don't think i've had or have a single friend who knows to the extent of my feelings. i know i've ran a few off because they didn't like what i had to say, but at least i won't lie to you. i may omit for a time, just because if it is something universally detrimental, i have full faith that you are intelligent enough to overcome and grow through it without me pointing it out to you.
4. i'm extremely sensitive. i get my feelings hurt very easily. i just don't show it much. of course unless you are aaron, which is why we have gotten into so many fights. we promised eachother on our second date that no matter how big no matter how small, if something was amiss we were going to talk about it and work through it. we constantly break through internal walls and blocks together and we are a stronger couple for it.
if i think of anything else i'll let you know, but this is good for now.
so i was reading some back journals and found my name in a few and to be honest, it really kind of sickens me. so i wanted to clue you in on some things about me that you all might not know.
1. i vent, everyone does. venting doesn't mean you are getting the whole story, most likely not even 75% of the story. and if you weren't there, you really can't understand the situation.
2. i'm more complex than anyone realizes. i'm also constantly changing. daily changing sometimes. i'm trying to be more understanding, less judgemental, strong in my own values, and to keep true to myself. i am human, i will make mistakes. and sometimes the mistakes justify the means, even if it is only for a short while. living with hatred and poison in your mind will kill you, i'm making progress on clearing this out.
3. i care WAY too much about people. and what sucks is that no one realizes this. i don't think i've had or have a single friend who knows to the extent of my feelings. i know i've ran a few off because they didn't like what i had to say, but at least i won't lie to you. i may omit for a time, just because if it is something universally detrimental, i have full faith that you are intelligent enough to overcome and grow through it without me pointing it out to you.
4. i'm extremely sensitive. i get my feelings hurt very easily. i just don't show it much. of course unless you are aaron, which is why we have gotten into so many fights. we promised eachother on our second date that no matter how big no matter how small, if something was amiss we were going to talk about it and work through it. we constantly break through internal walls and blocks together and we are a stronger couple for it.
if i think of anything else i'll let you know, but this is good for now.