That name just keeps coming out of my mouth....
Well, i was tired as fuck until just a few minutes ago. was at trey's talking all night till like 3, then i came home. fixed a lot of 40k stuff up so i can play next week, but as we were talking i noticed somthing ive never noticed i do. Every subject we came up with almost i had somthing connected to Elyse. They would say somthing, and the only experience with many of the subjects i had, had somthing to do with her. so all night, every other sentance was about somthing i had done, or talked about, with her. i realised i was doing this about halfway through the night, and i tried stopping, but i couldent think of anything but things with her. ah well. just another one of those things. i miss talking to her all the time tho. shes never online and im kinda afraid to call cause im afraid shell be talking to shaz and tell me this, which would cause bad things in me.She talks about him quite enough when we do talk, i dont need to be told that she is talking to him so she cant talk to me right now. which of course leaves me lacking in good conversation, except for times like tonight when i actually go out and hang with people for awhile, not exactley somthing i do much. so yeah. oh well, consequences of actions past. stupidity get repaid, and quite harshly. so i think ill just go to bed now. I miss having someone to talk to all the time...I never realised how lonely i get barricading myself in my room. Gnight all.