Wherefore art thou...so driven..?
Kind of glad no one comes here anymore--feel a bit freer typing openly, while still knowing there's the potential for comment.
Oddly enough, it really helped to curse excessively, in writing. Especially rereading, now. I still feel like it's allowing vent.
However, since I'm a masochist, and enjoy tormenting myself so wholly (and especially because it provides distraction from depression over break-up...cause no matter how necessary, it still hurts)...yeah, I'm totally gonna obsess over crush for a bit.
Hell, it's already made it easier to dissuade romantic advances. Not that I -should- feel so awkward about that, really. But I do. Always. It makes me uncomfortable to be approached with that particular line of intent.
Because I'm not damned well interested in romance. Or at least only interested in it with maybe .0000019% of the world population. But I'd totally like to be friends with everyone.
Just...I've yet to figure a way to make those balance out.
OMG< OMG> OMG@! yay! He just texted me (I didn't get his number, but he asked for mine).
FUck. I am so fucked. WHYDOILIKEHIM? WHYCANTIJUSTNOTLIKEANYONE?
((This is Crystal's consternation with self.))
Shit.
Well, whatever. Guess I gotta just roll with the punches.
Oddly enough, it really helped to curse excessively, in writing. Especially rereading, now. I still feel like it's allowing vent.
However, since I'm a masochist, and enjoy tormenting myself so wholly (and especially because it provides distraction from depression over break-up...cause no matter how necessary, it still hurts)...yeah, I'm totally gonna obsess over crush for a bit.
Hell, it's already made it easier to dissuade romantic advances. Not that I -should- feel so awkward about that, really. But I do. Always. It makes me uncomfortable to be approached with that particular line of intent.
Because I'm not damned well interested in romance. Or at least only interested in it with maybe .0000019% of the world population. But I'd totally like to be friends with everyone.
Just...I've yet to figure a way to make those balance out.
OMG< OMG> OMG@! yay! He just texted me (I didn't get his number, but he asked for mine).
FUck. I am so fucked. WHYDOILIKEHIM? WHYCANTIJUSTNOTLIKEANYONE?
((This is Crystal's consternation with self.))
Shit.
Well, whatever. Guess I gotta just roll with the punches.