not so sure...

[changingthesnow]

waiting for a bit until i eat....I should reconsider...but whatever..i guess humans eat...so essays and books....I read and write you....but....*sigh* what will I get out of it? I want to graduate already..i can't write the way I once did....my inspiration is nil and cliched...which I prefer not to write....I am finding that maybe i can't be what i wanted ...act...but maybe? i dunno....i dunno what i'm trying to escape anymore.....I take two showers a day now...lights off..feeling around for my shampoo..and conditioner...sitting.....hair in front of my face like a big warm curtain from something...I don't know what though....*sigh* today i needed a compliment....I didn't get one..I'll wait till tomarrow.....
Im not so sure of myself right now
Mj <3