Embarressed and Uncomfortable...
Well I just got done reading one of my friends journals and it basically said that I am an asshole too him but in a sugar coated way...Though I do not like admitting these things I believe I do. I have been trashing him all the time and hitting him but not like beating the shit out of him it's just hitting hard...I dunno doesn't make sense but I just don't know why I do it.
*I surround myself with people that like to make fun of me and say mean things* I believe I do do this and mike is not one of those kinds of people..he's a nice guy with a good heart and I dunno I just feel so weird because I get uncomfortable and I feel like I need to be a jackass to make everything seem less surreal. Maybe I should talk to a psychologists about these sorts of things.
I don't even feel like talking to him right now...kind off embarressed to talk to him at all. I guess he say's someone else agree's with him and I am pretty sure I know who it is. I don't care maybe if I cut myself off from them I can get over it in my own way and time...that sounds like the worst decision but I still think I should.
Mike, I'm sorry for the way I treat and more time then not I have been told I seem like a really nice person and then all the sudden I become this asshole...I don't what this pattern is and I'm not sure if I even want to figure it out or face it right now. I am feeling sick to my stomach and all I want to do is sleep and not think about it.
I don't like feeling talked about or ganged up on but that's how I feel right now and I need to deal with it...sorry guys, the love is still there though.
*changalla*
*I surround myself with people that like to make fun of me and say mean things* I believe I do do this and mike is not one of those kinds of people..he's a nice guy with a good heart and I dunno I just feel so weird because I get uncomfortable and I feel like I need to be a jackass to make everything seem less surreal. Maybe I should talk to a psychologists about these sorts of things.
I don't even feel like talking to him right now...kind off embarressed to talk to him at all. I guess he say's someone else agree's with him and I am pretty sure I know who it is. I don't care maybe if I cut myself off from them I can get over it in my own way and time...that sounds like the worst decision but I still think I should.
Mike, I'm sorry for the way I treat and more time then not I have been told I seem like a really nice person and then all the sudden I become this asshole...I don't what this pattern is and I'm not sure if I even want to figure it out or face it right now. I am feeling sick to my stomach and all I want to do is sleep and not think about it.
I don't like feeling talked about or ganged up on but that's how I feel right now and I need to deal with it...sorry guys, the love is still there though.
*changalla*