The Drunken Soul
I am sitting at this computer and typing this drunk off my ass. I seem to be feeling a lot better. You guys out there might not know this but I am actually like an alcohol. See my dad is an alcoholic along with mommy dearest so I get it from the 2 best drunks I know! I know it sounds stupid but it really does help. Though in the morning its goanna suck but for now I just say let it be! I guess its kinda stupid but hey it works. I use to use weed also as an escape. It was also very fun. I did vikadins,oxycodon,and one time in my life a little bit of cocaine. Yes I did lots of fun stuff. People may not thinks its fun but in my opionion theres nothing better. Well,thats what I use to think. I have stopped doing vikadins and oxycodon or how ever u spell it. Troubled Child huh? I hope to quit smoking cigs and weed to. I cant give up drinking though..NO WAY!
I read my ex girlfriends journal tonight. WOW...she had lots to say bout me. It made me feel like shit. Stuff about how drugs seemed to replace her and alcohol was better then her. She has it all wrong cause I do need her in my life. She helps keep me sane. I didnt mean to ignore her even though she thinks I did. I miss her so much and she needs to move back down to maine so I can hold her. She is my best friend now and I think thats all we can be.
Heres is the shocking part of the story. If u read my previous entries then you would know about whats been going on in my life. Yes tonight was the final straw. I was drinking a lot of vodka. I feel a lot better right now but wait till morning.
Anyways my friend From Alabama was online so I started talking to him. I started asking him questions about him. This guy is amazing. He is sensitive and every question I asked him..he just seemed so sure what he was saying. He seems like he knows who he is. The thing that happened was b4 he had to go I asked him if I was of those people in his life he didnt wanna give up. And he told me yes and that I better not go anywhere. That made so happy. I am actually starting to think I can deal with this. Thanks for all that your doing for me T. It means a lot.
I read my ex girlfriends journal tonight. WOW...she had lots to say bout me. It made me feel like shit. Stuff about how drugs seemed to replace her and alcohol was better then her. She has it all wrong cause I do need her in my life. She helps keep me sane. I didnt mean to ignore her even though she thinks I did. I miss her so much and she needs to move back down to maine so I can hold her. She is my best friend now and I think thats all we can be.
Heres is the shocking part of the story. If u read my previous entries then you would know about whats been going on in my life. Yes tonight was the final straw. I was drinking a lot of vodka. I feel a lot better right now but wait till morning.
Anyways my friend From Alabama was online so I started talking to him. I started asking him questions about him. This guy is amazing. He is sensitive and every question I asked him..he just seemed so sure what he was saying. He seems like he knows who he is. The thing that happened was b4 he had to go I asked him if I was of those people in his life he didnt wanna give up. And he told me yes and that I better not go anywhere. That made so happy. I am actually starting to think I can deal with this. Thanks for all that your doing for me T. It means a lot.