28…
It has been a few days since my birthday; I turned 28.
Every year I make a blog post about my year and about everything happening in my life, but this year I just didnt feel like writing coz in some way it didnt feel like it was my birthday. Dont get me wrong, I had an amazing day. I absolutely basked in the attention and love that people showered me. The thing is, the day for me felt like any other; but that was the beauty of it. This meant that I am happy about my regular day to day life and that in some senses every day was a bit like a birthday… At 28 thats a good thing to have :)
Its ironic but the topic on my mind most of the day was ‘death’. In the last few months, I have been surrounded by death. I have always believed that the only way to truly live in the moment is to know your own mortality and acknowledge it, but when you hear about death, all the philosophies you can concoct cant save you from feeling claustrophobic.
This year has been a bit extreme. There were depths of the abyss that made we wonder if I would ever have a normal day again and days that seemed to come right out of a fairytale ending. The 28th year of my life contained it, my lowest point of existence and possibly my finest moment… both barely four months apart. The biggest lesson I carry from this year is that no matter how bad a situation you can and will find a way out if you persist and survive to tell the tale.
Over the last year, I watched my first F1 race in person, got nominated for an award for the first time, worked with so many theater productions that I lost count, watched a ton of plays and movies, met and befriended so many wonderful talented people, realigned my life and rediscovered my passions… But it also contained days that I just couldnt get out of bed, idle evenings that made me wonder the point of anything, moments when I knew I had let down people that believed in me and days when I wondered if I had made the right choices over the years…
When we look back we always only remember the high and low points; Its almost as if the other days never existed. These silent days are actually what life is all about, in a lifetime most of your days are these muted days. And considering my average day is a positive one, I guess I am doing alright.
All that being said, I absolutely miss traveling… hope to do a bit more of that in the next trip around the sun… 29… here I come :)