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Guess who's ms. resistance?
Yeah. Went back to ffr chat. I mean...I used to be jealous of some girls there[no names mentioned] because they were pretty and got attention. Yes, it's a webcam and mic chat. But I realize they're not my 'opponents' as some people make it out to be, why should I CARE if someone gets watched and talked to more than me, purely because she's prettier? You're not going to get by in life with your looks, unless you want to be a hooker or model. None of them are 5'7". oops. that crosses out model.
Anyways...I downloaded PSP. I'm too weak to just..dish this whole net life. I started personalising again-not doing too well..but I guess it's fun. And it's artistic and I like doing this. And that's enough reasons.
The sad thing is-being online makes me happy sometimes. And maybe that's good, just do whatever makes me happy. But I want to do what makes me happiEST. Yes. The limit. I don't care about being temporary happy like when rynnie had that 30 second phone call from john. Sure, it was funny, and i was happy AT THE TIME, but now it's just a silly inside joke. What good does that do me?
Ugh. I rambled again. I have no idea what time to get off. I don't feel like sleeping. I feel like I could write in this all night long. And it's not like I have anything to DO tomorrow, not like I have anywhere to go, anyone to be with.
Popularity. what an issue it's become. it bothers me. a lot. a lot a lot.
at 12:12 ill make a wish and hope it comes true. so I won't be off before 12:12...
Yeah. Went back to ffr chat. I mean...I used to be jealous of some girls there[no names mentioned] because they were pretty and got attention. Yes, it's a webcam and mic chat. But I realize they're not my 'opponents' as some people make it out to be, why should I CARE if someone gets watched and talked to more than me, purely because she's prettier? You're not going to get by in life with your looks, unless you want to be a hooker or model. None of them are 5'7". oops. that crosses out model.
Anyways...I downloaded PSP. I'm too weak to just..dish this whole net life. I started personalising again-not doing too well..but I guess it's fun. And it's artistic and I like doing this. And that's enough reasons.
The sad thing is-being online makes me happy sometimes. And maybe that's good, just do whatever makes me happy. But I want to do what makes me happiEST. Yes. The limit. I don't care about being temporary happy like when rynnie had that 30 second phone call from john. Sure, it was funny, and i was happy AT THE TIME, but now it's just a silly inside joke. What good does that do me?
Ugh. I rambled again. I have no idea what time to get off. I don't feel like sleeping. I feel like I could write in this all night long. And it's not like I have anything to DO tomorrow, not like I have anywhere to go, anyone to be with.
Popularity. what an issue it's become. it bothers me. a lot. a lot a lot.
at 12:12 ill make a wish and hope it comes true. so I won't be off before 12:12...