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Don't get me wrong, I am super excited for my friends but good Lord why is everyone freakin' engaged. It's seriously making my stomach upset. My emotions are runnin' in all different directions...happy, excited, nervous, hopeless, jealous...I need a good single, independent movie to watch ASAP. I wonder how many weddings I'm going to be in before I get married. Probably a lot if I never get married- I really think that's in the cards for me, which is something I've been totally content with until recently. And it's not because I want a guy, ha, definitely not the case, it's because I've started to realize that I'm eternally destined to be a third wheel if I don't get married. Ouch.
I'm taking my friend Megan from high school (who is marrying my middle school crush of 2 years btw) out to dinner tonight. It will be a night with the 3 other bridesmaids discussing dresses, parties, honeymoons, etc....AHHHH! I will need some serious single woman therapy after this.
Two days ago I started a journey of my own self help. Every time I stand in front of my mirror I read the sign I put up that says "you're a catch, believe it"- let me tell you, it's hard to discredit that idea when you're looking at yourself and saying those words. I think it's helping. But I think I might start saying "you're eternally a third wheel" just to prepare my heart for the realization that is going to come in my life later. Might as well get a head start.
I'm fine. Really. I am. (lying to a computer makes me feel better because it can't catch me)
I'm taking my friend Megan from high school (who is marrying my middle school crush of 2 years btw) out to dinner tonight. It will be a night with the 3 other bridesmaids discussing dresses, parties, honeymoons, etc....AHHHH! I will need some serious single woman therapy after this.
Two days ago I started a journey of my own self help. Every time I stand in front of my mirror I read the sign I put up that says "you're a catch, believe it"- let me tell you, it's hard to discredit that idea when you're looking at yourself and saying those words. I think it's helping. But I think I might start saying "you're eternally a third wheel" just to prepare my heart for the realization that is going to come in my life later. Might as well get a head start.
I'm fine. Really. I am. (lying to a computer makes me feel better because it can't catch me)