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Before I forget...
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Hey, just me....
I thought I would write some thoughts down, you know before you go getting your soul again. Thoughts that you aren't willing to admit when you're souled, thoughts such as 'Spike's a good guy' and 'I love him' you know, to stop you from putting your stupid barriers up. The walls that keep you from being happy, let me tell you this, Angel was your first love yes but he isn't your last and he certainly isn't who I've felt anything for and it's me, here, with no inhibitions and all that jazz.
I'm the you, you won't allow yourself to be, I am the Buffy not afraid of getting hurt, of being with someone and of opening up. You should try it, it works wonders, granted, I'm not the most safe and sensible person at the moment but I know, Spike's a good guy, he's been here for me and for you and it's about time, you stopped acting like a complete and utter idiot and admitted to how you feel.
..I Buffy Summers am in love with Spike...
What's so hard about that? For fucks sake, the man died for you, what more do you want? He has a soul now and let me tell you, he's trying Buffy, he really is, for you, for all of us. He isn't the Spike you used to know, he's different because of you..because of what's happened and it's time you stopped pretending nothing's changed. I know you love him, just because of how you are with him, he makes you better and you make him better. Think about that okay?
Don't hate him..I know you don't, you just pretend to so you won't get attached and he won't try...but you know what? That's the road to being alone...don't do this to yourself, you want Spike, take him, it's just that simple.
Don't bottle everything either, it isn't good for you. You're peoples' rock, their strength but even you need to open up and let everything out now and then, talk to them Buffy, tell them how you feel, it's the only way things are going to get better. Oh yeah, whilst I'm at it, don't hit Spike too hard for the sex in the alleyway, you can't choose where these things happen sometimes, they just do...
Oh yeah, hit Giles for me would you? He's been doing a piss poor job of being a Watcher as of late and see if you can't strangle Kennedy whilst you're at it, and Eve, yes ...talk about fun time!
But remember Buffy, you LOVE him...do SOMETHING about it!
Love,
Soulless You!
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Urgh....going to go lie down now, head spinning...tired some more...
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Hey, just me....
I thought I would write some thoughts down, you know before you go getting your soul again. Thoughts that you aren't willing to admit when you're souled, thoughts such as 'Spike's a good guy' and 'I love him' you know, to stop you from putting your stupid barriers up. The walls that keep you from being happy, let me tell you this, Angel was your first love yes but he isn't your last and he certainly isn't who I've felt anything for and it's me, here, with no inhibitions and all that jazz.
I'm the you, you won't allow yourself to be, I am the Buffy not afraid of getting hurt, of being with someone and of opening up. You should try it, it works wonders, granted, I'm not the most safe and sensible person at the moment but I know, Spike's a good guy, he's been here for me and for you and it's about time, you stopped acting like a complete and utter idiot and admitted to how you feel.
..I Buffy Summers am in love with Spike...
What's so hard about that? For fucks sake, the man died for you, what more do you want? He has a soul now and let me tell you, he's trying Buffy, he really is, for you, for all of us. He isn't the Spike you used to know, he's different because of you..because of what's happened and it's time you stopped pretending nothing's changed. I know you love him, just because of how you are with him, he makes you better and you make him better. Think about that okay?
Don't hate him..I know you don't, you just pretend to so you won't get attached and he won't try...but you know what? That's the road to being alone...don't do this to yourself, you want Spike, take him, it's just that simple.
Don't bottle everything either, it isn't good for you. You're peoples' rock, their strength but even you need to open up and let everything out now and then, talk to them Buffy, tell them how you feel, it's the only way things are going to get better. Oh yeah, whilst I'm at it, don't hit Spike too hard for the sex in the alleyway, you can't choose where these things happen sometimes, they just do...
Oh yeah, hit Giles for me would you? He's been doing a piss poor job of being a Watcher as of late and see if you can't strangle Kennedy whilst you're at it, and Eve, yes ...talk about fun time!
But remember Buffy, you LOVE him...do SOMETHING about it!
Love,
Soulless You!
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Urgh....going to go lie down now, head spinning...tired some more...