I've started waking up at 4am again the last couple days; not (principally) from anxiety, more because I probably need to reinstate "no liquids after 9pm", but it is annoying.

Generally, though, in the past day or so I am starting to feel marginally less stressed. (I had dinner tonight -- er, Wednesday night -- with edashevs and mearah, who took one look at me ( Read more... )

I suspect it's not a good sign (or at least, a sign of overambitious activity level from the weekend) to wake up Monday morning and immediately burst into tears because OMG so tired.

Also, while it was a good weekend, on the whole, and full of good and worthwhile things... it turns out that holiday times are inherently stressful on the recently ( Read more... )

I had the Plague most of last week. ( moderately gory details )

This pre-holiday crying jag (or whatever it is; it's not even PMS Day) can go away any time now, seriously. It is Not Welcome ( Read more... )

All I want is... ( everything that seems so close and yet so far out of my reach. )

[assorted rants at universe deleted ( Read more... )

Last night my homeboys made me swear up and down that I would call today for a doctor's appointment, because my right wrist has now been bugging me to various degrees for over three weeks. Since I got the new brace, it's much improved over what it was for a while, but now there's a spot on the outside (just under the heel of my hand) that feels ( Read more... )

It occurs to me to be grateful that I wasn't PMSing during Pesach. One Carberry's chocolate-orange muffin, and I feel considerably less like causing bodily harm to anyone, nor going home and listening for hours to Aimee Mann (or Cat Stevens, my other wallowing soundtrack of choice).

Going to see Iolanthe with navrins tonight will be nice, too. (Sorry, ( Read more... )

Ad-ana, HaShem, tishkacheni netzach?
Ad-ana tastir et-panecha mimeni?
Ad-ana ashit etzot b'nafshi, yagon bilvavi yomam?

How long, G-d? Will You forget me for ever? How long will You hide Your face from me?
How long must I bear pain in my soul, and have sorrow in my heart all the day?

(This is from Psalm 13:1-2... but it seems like a long time ( Read more... )

Exhausted. Heartsick. Sore. And also crampy (it's always intensified when I'm half a day late like this). Still so fucking jet-lagged that I can't fall asleep until 2:30am EDT, even though I'm tired by 10:30pm. Can't bear to tackle anything I should be doing here at work. Personal schedule swamped until, like, Monday. I need a competent backrub ( Read more... )