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“You saved me. If not from this world, then from myself.” If I ever find someone, they might hear me say those exact words, or ones like them. Personally, I can’t think of a greater compliment than that. Hearing someone you care about telling you that, letting you know that you had that big of an impact on their life. Yet still, I wait.
Lemme just put up a disclaimer here. I haven’t seen Shawshank in about a year, so I don’t’ know why these quotes are popping into my head. Probably that whole insanity thing or something.
“Salvation lies within” For some reason I have been thinking about that quote a lot. For those who care, and don’t know, it was said by Warden Norton in reference to Andy’s Bible. Like I said I have been thinking about it, if for no other reason than it takes my mind off her, and I have come up with some interesting ideas. Taken out of context, it has powerful meaning. Salvation lies within. Not just spiritual salvation, but redemption from all things. Nothing but the inner strength one posses can see them through the trials and snares of life. I would like to think that I have what it takes to find the salvation I seek on my own, but more and more I realize that the easiest way is with help from someone else. Who knows how it will turn out. I got no other choice but to keep going, and keep trying.
“Let me tell you something my friend. Hope is a dangerous thing. Hope can drive a man insane.” I can fully attest to this one. It was the hope that she would come back that has put me in this bind, and though it is the hope that things will change that wakes me up in the morning, it is those dashed hopes that tuck me in and haunt me at the end of the day.
::sigh:: Maybe the problem is that I am too poetic. I am just not communicating things clear enough (though how much clearer than a “hello” can one get?). Maybe I am seeing things in too big of a picture. I see each time someone ignores me as a failure of society, instead of what it could be, which is just someone not looking for a relationship (despite what their fucking profile says). Doesn’t really matter though. Regardless of how I see it, there is no easy or good way to look at it.
Lemme just put up a disclaimer here. I haven’t seen Shawshank in about a year, so I don’t’ know why these quotes are popping into my head. Probably that whole insanity thing or something.
“Salvation lies within” For some reason I have been thinking about that quote a lot. For those who care, and don’t know, it was said by Warden Norton in reference to Andy’s Bible. Like I said I have been thinking about it, if for no other reason than it takes my mind off her, and I have come up with some interesting ideas. Taken out of context, it has powerful meaning. Salvation lies within. Not just spiritual salvation, but redemption from all things. Nothing but the inner strength one posses can see them through the trials and snares of life. I would like to think that I have what it takes to find the salvation I seek on my own, but more and more I realize that the easiest way is with help from someone else. Who knows how it will turn out. I got no other choice but to keep going, and keep trying.
“Let me tell you something my friend. Hope is a dangerous thing. Hope can drive a man insane.” I can fully attest to this one. It was the hope that she would come back that has put me in this bind, and though it is the hope that things will change that wakes me up in the morning, it is those dashed hopes that tuck me in and haunt me at the end of the day.
::sigh:: Maybe the problem is that I am too poetic. I am just not communicating things clear enough (though how much clearer than a “hello” can one get?). Maybe I am seeing things in too big of a picture. I see each time someone ignores me as a failure of society, instead of what it could be, which is just someone not looking for a relationship (despite what their fucking profile says). Doesn’t really matter though. Regardless of how I see it, there is no easy or good way to look at it.