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So, the other day i was thinking and i haven't actually done that in a while. I mean like seriously thought about stuff. It kinda sucked.
I thought about all the people that have promised me things and said stuff to me that i actually believed. I thought about all the guys that have told me that they'd "love me forever" and "my feelings will never ever change about you" only to know that they have. How can someone change how they feel so quickly? I kno that we're young, but how can you really truly KNOW something and then a month later or a year later or whatever amount of time later say that you're over me? How can you mean everything and be the world and a dream to someone and all of a sudden mean virtually nothing to them? How can you supposedly be the most beautiful person in the world to someone and then be just "pretty".
It hurts to know that all of the guys that said that, all the things that they said like that...was a lie. I guess i'm jus looking for the guy who truly means what he says, no matter what. That a year from now,even if i didn't talk to him, that he would still feel the same way about me.
I've done such a good job of ignoring and pushing away my feelings of hurt, but every now n then they come up and i jus can't help but feel so sorry and hurt for all the wasted time i've spent actually believing that what they said was true. I'm sure i've done my share of breaking hearts, but even when i've felt like i had to... i always did it in the least hurtful way. It's so hard becuz i feel like now wen a guy says certain things to me, i just have so much mistrust. But, i'm learning to not hold what other guys have said against this person. I guess i jus have too much faith to believe that there will be someone who truly means every word that he says and t hat he WILL feel that way forever.
to all the guys who have told me that their feelings will never change about me...such a fool i was to believe you. Thanks a lot to the guy/s/ who thought they could do better than another guy for me...and only ended up disappointing me even more, I WASN'T AWARE OF THE FACT THAT FOREVER IS ONLY A MONTH OR TWO!
Not a big fan of Avril, but this song says my story so well.
"you were everything, everything that i wanted
we were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it,
all the memories so close to me just fade away...
all this time you were pretending...so much for my happy ending"
on a lighter note...i'm doing pretty well. MUAH ..more later!
I thought about all the people that have promised me things and said stuff to me that i actually believed. I thought about all the guys that have told me that they'd "love me forever" and "my feelings will never ever change about you" only to know that they have. How can someone change how they feel so quickly? I kno that we're young, but how can you really truly KNOW something and then a month later or a year later or whatever amount of time later say that you're over me? How can you mean everything and be the world and a dream to someone and all of a sudden mean virtually nothing to them? How can you supposedly be the most beautiful person in the world to someone and then be just "pretty".
It hurts to know that all of the guys that said that, all the things that they said like that...was a lie. I guess i'm jus looking for the guy who truly means what he says, no matter what. That a year from now,even if i didn't talk to him, that he would still feel the same way about me.
I've done such a good job of ignoring and pushing away my feelings of hurt, but every now n then they come up and i jus can't help but feel so sorry and hurt for all the wasted time i've spent actually believing that what they said was true. I'm sure i've done my share of breaking hearts, but even when i've felt like i had to... i always did it in the least hurtful way. It's so hard becuz i feel like now wen a guy says certain things to me, i just have so much mistrust. But, i'm learning to not hold what other guys have said against this person. I guess i jus have too much faith to believe that there will be someone who truly means every word that he says and t hat he WILL feel that way forever.
to all the guys who have told me that their feelings will never change about me...such a fool i was to believe you. Thanks a lot to the guy/s/ who thought they could do better than another guy for me...and only ended up disappointing me even more, I WASN'T AWARE OF THE FACT THAT FOREVER IS ONLY A MONTH OR TWO!
Not a big fan of Avril, but this song says my story so well.
"you were everything, everything that i wanted
we were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it,
all the memories so close to me just fade away...
all this time you were pretending...so much for my happy ending"
on a lighter note...i'm doing pretty well. MUAH ..more later!