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well i just have lots of thoughts in my head right now.
I still do like jamie, not as much obviously because he hurt my feelings. It was hard just now seeing on his facebook that he is looking for dating or a relationship. Somethin may happen when i get there, it may not. What is meant to happen will happen. I know he has been so focused and nervous about his trip to chicago, goin to work, and math and havin a long distance relationship with a girl that he didn't get to spend much time with before didn't make anything easier.
Im just kinda frustrated. Still hurt some This whole summer i really liked him and cared about his well-being. I had been looking forward to us being together this whole summer. His new apartment is right by tutwiler, bein in moody together all the time, and just spending time together.
But I will come back lookin real good, so when he sees me, he'll be blown away.
So while dealing with my feelings for jamie, I have been hanging out with Adam. Adam tells me that he has never had feelings for a girl like he does for me. He put a flower on my desk at work one night, we cooked last night, and are going to the beach on friday. I have realized that my pattern to heal is to find another guy right after me and the other one break up. I do like Adam. We have a fun time together, are a lot alike, and he is pretty good lookin. Adam says that we should take advantage of the time left that I am here. I do like him, don't get me wrong, but I still like jamie to some degree and am hoping that something happens when I get there. When I am driving to t-town on the 23rd, at some point during the day I will text jamie and say something like "i am in louisiana right now and I think i will be in town around (insert time here) and I am just throwin it out there that if you want to hang just let me know. You don't have to answer this, but i figured i would ask"
i miss him
I still do like jamie, not as much obviously because he hurt my feelings. It was hard just now seeing on his facebook that he is looking for dating or a relationship. Somethin may happen when i get there, it may not. What is meant to happen will happen. I know he has been so focused and nervous about his trip to chicago, goin to work, and math and havin a long distance relationship with a girl that he didn't get to spend much time with before didn't make anything easier.
Im just kinda frustrated. Still hurt some This whole summer i really liked him and cared about his well-being. I had been looking forward to us being together this whole summer. His new apartment is right by tutwiler, bein in moody together all the time, and just spending time together.
But I will come back lookin real good, so when he sees me, he'll be blown away.
So while dealing with my feelings for jamie, I have been hanging out with Adam. Adam tells me that he has never had feelings for a girl like he does for me. He put a flower on my desk at work one night, we cooked last night, and are going to the beach on friday. I have realized that my pattern to heal is to find another guy right after me and the other one break up. I do like Adam. We have a fun time together, are a lot alike, and he is pretty good lookin. Adam says that we should take advantage of the time left that I am here. I do like him, don't get me wrong, but I still like jamie to some degree and am hoping that something happens when I get there. When I am driving to t-town on the 23rd, at some point during the day I will text jamie and say something like "i am in louisiana right now and I think i will be in town around (insert time here) and I am just throwin it out there that if you want to hang just let me know. You don't have to answer this, but i figured i would ask"
i miss him