Harry Potter, Work, Money...
Well, I'm currently re-reading the Harry Potter series because I haven't read them in awhile. However, I have a feeling that I'm not going to finish in time for Saturday unless I'm left alone for extensive periods of time tonight and tomorrow. I will be buying it on Saturday though and if anyone reads it before I do they are forbidden to even say one word to me about it until I finish and I will afford them with the same courtesy.
Work still sucks, but everyone seems to love me (or the people I like love me) and that's all that counts. Basically, James is out of the picture, but he is still nice to look at . Oh and he smells good too. Maybe I should ask him what cologne he uses so that I can keep it in mind for a future boyfriend. I finally got paid too so that makes me REALLY happy because now I have loads of money (i.e. one month's pay)! Speaking of which I found out the other day that I got more scholarship money from the school so I no longer need to look for new scholarships. That makes me really happy. Looking for scholarships and writing essays for them stink.
Lately I feel like I have no time for anything. I just feel lazy all the time and it really stinks because my room is a mess and I know my parents are going to get upset soon. Also, because I had an opportunity to go visit friends, but instead I chose to be lazy and sit at home and do nothing. I think I'm becoming antisocial. I don't even really talk to anyone online. Only if they message me and even then I don't really talk to them much. That reminds me... my best friend from middle school IM'd me last night. We aren't good friends anymore because when we were in high school she told me that she thought I had my priorities wrong since I cared a lot about school and didn't spend my weekends with her (we attended different high schools). She also told me that my family didn't deserve all my attention and all of this other stuff. Well, second semester freshmen year of college, she contacted me and apologized and then asked me to be one of her bridesmaids at her wedding. I was shocked and not exactly enthusiastic about being a bridesmaid since I hadn't talked to her in such a long time. I did agree though. Then I didn't hear from her for about 4 or 5 months. It turned out that she didn't get married because she and her fiance decided to wait. Then there was another gap of 6 months or so. She called me one day last school year and told me that she was coming to visit the school because she was going to transfer and asked to meet with me. We met those couple times, but we didn't really have much to talk about and I honestly didn't care too much about the stuff she was telling me (she was talking about people I haven't seen in about 4 years). So anyways I met her a couple more times for random things that she had to do at school. * I have a point I promise* So in last night's conversation she asked me if I was at school and when I told her I wasn't she asked when I was going back up. I told her and then she told me that she found this letter I wrote her when we were best friends and it made her cry. I didn't really know what to say and I told her so. She said she didn't either, but that we might become better friends when I go back to school. I didn't want to tell her that I doubted that that would happen... but that's what I honestly feel will happen. We're both completely different people now. We don't really share anything in common except for those years when we were friends. I don't want to hurt her feelings, but I really don't intend on seeing her all that much. She is really clingy and I'm past that now. I think she doesn't have very many friends, let alone female friends anymore, due to the fact that she is engaged and wants to spend time with him a lot or he comes along so that's why she wants to be friends again.
*Sigh* That was all very convoluted, but I hope it makes at least some sense. All in all, I have no clue what to do because I don't want to hurt her feelings (because of old memories and etc), but I don't want to be forced to hang out with someone I really dislike due to guilt. I've tried to be diplomatic about it, but she either doesn't get it or she's ignoring it.
Alrighty, now that I've got that off my chest I am going back to my reading. Have a good night or day or whatever.
Work still sucks, but everyone seems to love me (or the people I like love me) and that's all that counts. Basically, James is out of the picture, but he is still nice to look at . Oh and he smells good too. Maybe I should ask him what cologne he uses so that I can keep it in mind for a future boyfriend. I finally got paid too so that makes me REALLY happy because now I have loads of money (i.e. one month's pay)! Speaking of which I found out the other day that I got more scholarship money from the school so I no longer need to look for new scholarships. That makes me really happy. Looking for scholarships and writing essays for them stink.
Lately I feel like I have no time for anything. I just feel lazy all the time and it really stinks because my room is a mess and I know my parents are going to get upset soon. Also, because I had an opportunity to go visit friends, but instead I chose to be lazy and sit at home and do nothing. I think I'm becoming antisocial. I don't even really talk to anyone online. Only if they message me and even then I don't really talk to them much. That reminds me... my best friend from middle school IM'd me last night. We aren't good friends anymore because when we were in high school she told me that she thought I had my priorities wrong since I cared a lot about school and didn't spend my weekends with her (we attended different high schools). She also told me that my family didn't deserve all my attention and all of this other stuff. Well, second semester freshmen year of college, she contacted me and apologized and then asked me to be one of her bridesmaids at her wedding. I was shocked and not exactly enthusiastic about being a bridesmaid since I hadn't talked to her in such a long time. I did agree though. Then I didn't hear from her for about 4 or 5 months. It turned out that she didn't get married because she and her fiance decided to wait. Then there was another gap of 6 months or so. She called me one day last school year and told me that she was coming to visit the school because she was going to transfer and asked to meet with me. We met those couple times, but we didn't really have much to talk about and I honestly didn't care too much about the stuff she was telling me (she was talking about people I haven't seen in about 4 years). So anyways I met her a couple more times for random things that she had to do at school. * I have a point I promise* So in last night's conversation she asked me if I was at school and when I told her I wasn't she asked when I was going back up. I told her and then she told me that she found this letter I wrote her when we were best friends and it made her cry. I didn't really know what to say and I told her so. She said she didn't either, but that we might become better friends when I go back to school. I didn't want to tell her that I doubted that that would happen... but that's what I honestly feel will happen. We're both completely different people now. We don't really share anything in common except for those years when we were friends. I don't want to hurt her feelings, but I really don't intend on seeing her all that much. She is really clingy and I'm past that now. I think she doesn't have very many friends, let alone female friends anymore, due to the fact that she is engaged and wants to spend time with him a lot or he comes along so that's why she wants to be friends again.
*Sigh* That was all very convoluted, but I hope it makes at least some sense. All in all, I have no clue what to do because I don't want to hurt her feelings (because of old memories and etc), but I don't want to be forced to hang out with someone I really dislike due to guilt. I've tried to be diplomatic about it, but she either doesn't get it or she's ignoring it.
Alrighty, now that I've got that off my chest I am going back to my reading. Have a good night or day or whatever.