to hear that applause.

[cervrok]

i need to be singing. i miss it so much it's like a constant weight in my chest. why is it so hard to find a group, any group? i live in new york freakin city and you're telling me i can't find one a cappella group that's auditioning? or a rock band...that would be amazing. i've always said that it's a dream of mine to front a rock band, but

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[erato_in_bloom]

Hey, lady. Sad to see you feeling low. To a lesser extent, I know how you feel.

In middle and high school, I was part of a band for seven years. I mean like, symphonic and marching band, not in a cool rock band/acappella group like you. ;) We were really good, too, one of the best in the state. Our instructor had something like a 33-year streak of straight superiors at every district competition. It never happened while I was there, but the band even travelled out of state a couple times to compete further.

We had a sweet rep, man, for both our symphonic and marching bands, and the crowd loved us. That feeling of performing in front of the crowd on Friday nights, with the kick-ass drumline and all of the screaming and anticipation....especially when we broke it down with our dance routine...just being so sweaty and exuberant and high afterwards, being a part of something bigger, with friends and music and good times swirling around me...I don't have anything like that in my life right now, that kind of unity, that kind of musical outlet, and it seriously bites. I miss the beats of the drumline so much, their booming funkadelic power, I miss the french horns and the way it made a lump in my throat when they finally got their solos right...I miss the long hours of practice, of the drills and the notes over and over again, of dancing in the stands, of getting the music tight and perfect, of our conductor cracking his rare smile (only when it came to the music; he was a wonderful teacher otherwise, serious but so personable and funny) and being like "Wow, guys. Just wow."

Recently I discovered I can download drumline cadences on Ares, so I've been having a field day with that. I even found a cadence that we used to do. BOO-ya!

I hope you find a group to jam with soon, Julbird, so you can let that voice of yours fly. Do you have any mp3s of you singing? I'd love to hear 'em. :]

[cervrok]

wow, philo, that almost made me cry, seriously, you know just how i feel. to this day, i remember the very first time i heard harmony in chorus, in 7th grade. i remember the goosebumps i had listening to this sound that we had created. i still get goosebumps when i hear tight harmony...it's the most amazing feeling.

just being so sweaty and exuberant and high afterwards, being a part of something bigger, with friends and music and good times swirling around me

yes! did you get "post-performance high"? always, after a concert i'd be on such a high...it's the same way with the high school theatre i did. i still miss the cameraderie of those days.

and i do have some mp3s of me singing...there's 2 cds wih me on them, but i haven't uploaded them yet. i have a cool little snippet on my computer now that i can send you, though...if you promise not to laugh.