I feel invisible....again.
Just having yet another one of those days where I feel like everything I say is ignored and doesn't matter. I hate feeling that way so much that I almost cry every time. I mean its really stupid when I get down to thinking about it because oh I said I wanted cereal and the first thing she does is goes and uses all the milk for herself without even caring about leaving some so I could eat. It does sound really silly but try dealing with that for almost a year and then pointing it out when you get in those explosive fights and being promised that its going to change and you're going to not feel like you don't matter anymore and then the next day its right back to the way it was before the explosive fight. It hurts so bad it makes me want to give up and just not care about myself because not even the one that suppose to care most about me does. I'm just tired of being treated like dirt. I can't even explain how it makes me feel because she wont even take the chance to listen to it. She just acts like it doesn't matter because it doesn't hurt her, and if it doesn't effect her then who cares. I dunno...I don't even know why I should care anymore. I should just go back to not giving a damn about anything and maybe shit will work out for me instead of it passing me up.