blah blah daddy issues
My dad and I haven't been close since I was much younger. The custody battles I had to go through from fifth grade through middle school tore me away from both of my parents, and no one ever fixed that. Dad and I have a certain bro-ship now that I'm okay with. We talk, we joke around, we manage. There's no denying that I get my humor from him. But I rarely talk about things that matter. I can't bring up school stuff because he brings up how much of a failure I am, how my cousin is going to be a doctor and go to an ivy league school and I won't even get into Drexel and just end up going to Penn State and ending up like my mother. And neither of us bring up our feelings, that would be too weird. I don't let him see me cry.
I guess the point of explaining that was to make me sound less materialistic when I say this. My dad is pretty well off, his whole family is. Buying things has always been the only way we've bonded. He buys me stuff I want, or takes me out to a nice dinner, or on a vacation, and that's how he shows he cares.
So when I called him last night as asked to go prom shopping with him next weekend (which will be the first time I've seen him in two weeks), and he said "Your mom can take you, I hate that stuff. Besides, I might go on vacation then."
It hurt a lot. He knows how much fashion means to me, and how long I've been looking forward to this prom, and the fact that he just brushed me off like that, and that he would rather go on vacation and not see me for a whole month...
This shouldn't bother me, after everything. I wish it didn't, but it does.
I guess the point of explaining that was to make me sound less materialistic when I say this. My dad is pretty well off, his whole family is. Buying things has always been the only way we've bonded. He buys me stuff I want, or takes me out to a nice dinner, or on a vacation, and that's how he shows he cares.
So when I called him last night as asked to go prom shopping with him next weekend (which will be the first time I've seen him in two weeks), and he said "Your mom can take you, I hate that stuff. Besides, I might go on vacation then."
It hurt a lot. He knows how much fashion means to me, and how long I've been looking forward to this prom, and the fact that he just brushed me off like that, and that he would rather go on vacation and not see me for a whole month...
This shouldn't bother me, after everything. I wish it didn't, but it does.