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[centsoflife]

I woke up this morning with the phone constantly ringing. It said it was my parents’ house, so I didn’t think it was a big deal. I also remembered that Heather has been doing really poorly lately so I checked my message. It was mom. “Heather isn’t doing so well, so call me back please

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[fragilest]

I love Ayn Rand... And I love you my dear, dear (albeit rather estranged lately...) friend. I really have no wise words for what your family is going through. I don't know quite what it's like to see a sister go through such a painful time, but I do want you to know, that I'm always fully available for listening and talking... even talking about something totally unrelated, if you feel like you just can't take another second of speaking about what's going on. I might not be the best friend in the terms of keeping in touch, but I always want to hear from you.

P.S. I don't think you're horrible or brutal for wanting what you want. If other boys just can't accept that than fuck them. The only time I would advise you otherwise, is if you really truly felt something fabulous and special and pushed it out of mind for fear of rushing into something. Be clear about what you want and what you're ready/not ready for, all the while NOT closing yourself off to the possibility of something great. Love you dear and hope all is as well as it can be. Talk to you soon, hopefully

~Bryan

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[centsoflife]

Awww, thanks Bryan! You are so sweet.

My day was pretty crappy in the beginning. I just couldn't believe Heather's lungs took a crapper. I am a control freak, so the fact that things weren't going my way, I was upset. But I am trying to be cool.

Later today I worked with a fellow fag and we talked about boys. And then I got to do my favorite thing: making people laugh. I went home on my lunch break and my order of Leukemia awareness bracelets came in and I'm sporting mine.

Then my day brightened up with a boy who wouldn't stop calling me while I was at work. I like feeling wanted. And your note helped me, too. It's nice to know there is some sweetness out there.

I want to go dancing tonight and I know I should call you. However, I really should stay in and play hermit. But I look forward to when we get to shake our groove thing. And maybe Brett can work his skills on the dance floor? (He must have some skills, right??)

Talk to you soon and thank you. You really have no idea what it means.

-- Jacob

P.S. - My fortune cookie's fortune said, "All the world may not love a lover but they will be watching him." What does it mean?? I think my cookie is smarter than me.