Feeling better… but very wary

[cemeteryconsort]

I feel okay. But I'm very nervious. I haven't touched coffee yet. Had my first meal today... We'll see where this goes. Or what it turns into. I have a LOT of work to do this week, and a lot of complaints I'm sure to suffer through... so I don't have time for this shit.

My neck is stiff, my calves feel like they are going to cramp again.. though I'

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[miss_whiplash]

I hope you are OK now. Does this mean you are going to try to set a lower maximum allowable weight?

[cemeteryconsort]

I get to the point where I'm just hoping NOT to loose more weight, not like that anyway. I had my 'lowest weight' which was a very nice weight for my comfort, but went up a bit, which was still 'okay'. but then it really cranked up over this winter, so that I had gained back 15 lbs and was closing in on 20. I'd like to just stay within 5-7 lbs of my lowest weight.. but it never stays there it seems. That said, I do NOT want a repeat of my emotional roller coaster I went on when I was sick in 2006 and lost 20ish pounds in a month. Of course worrying about my health and going nuts trying to get my work done (impossible and I should just accept that) is wearing on me too. I'm having my first cup of coffee now since Thursday. Just to see what happens. Plus its cold out and I want something warm. The tea I had this morning just didn't do it.

[miss_whiplash]

Good luck.