19.II.2011.
Disclaimer: This post probably contains of a lot of ranting and a lot of I-don't-know-what, so if you're uninterested just hide and ignore.
After failing PTI course, I have been assailed by many well-wishers and not-so-well-wishers, asking me on what actually happened. Well, firstly I was just plain physically weak and can't clear the low wall with FBO, and thus can't pass the test. Good enough. Also, I sustained an injury during the last week to provide a cover excuse for myself; as I tried to clear the swing trainer I somehow overarched my back, resulting in a back strain, which almost immobilized me from doing any PTI test (FBO SOC) for the last test, which I would not have passed anyway. But then it seemed comfortable it a twisted way and so that back sprain (which I found was not serious at all, but could last a long time) sort of became a source of self-pity/comfort and whatnot.
Anyway, I'm now probably doing nothing and currently enjoying this short moment while it lasts, especially there's nothing in the immediate future worth looking out for. Currently doing nothing at AFC HQ while waiting for ASLC (infantry course) to start, while others who have dropped out earlier got cushy admin posts without needing to downpes. My problem isn't exactly serious, and most likely I'll just go to ASLC, although I get an option to recourse PTI again. This is where the tricky part is:
If I choose to go PTI:
+ early nights, no outfield
+ at least I know the people and instructors and there will be no transition
+ less regimentation and discipline
+ a chance to know whether I can actually make it or just made of fail =/
- a chance that I might not pass
If I choose to go ASLC:
+ 99% confirm pass (since I've done SOC and whatnot)
+ overseas
- but that's Thailand.
- culture shock and have to adapt again
- late nights, outfield
Most likely, what my choice really makes doesn't really matter as if I choose to go PTI it is subject to approval from many layers of authority. So should I declare interest? And my physiotherapist said that my injury will OOC me any place I go, so mostly it's just a matter of where I ooc.
Anyway I've just requested to be posted as a clerk in Maju camp before aslc starts, to avoid the overwhelming mood of negativity with the other ooc'es and to get some fresh air.
Oh, and I watched No Strings Attached yesterday. It wasn't good.
After failing PTI course, I have been assailed by many well-wishers and not-so-well-wishers, asking me on what actually happened. Well, firstly I was just plain physically weak and can't clear the low wall with FBO, and thus can't pass the test. Good enough. Also, I sustained an injury during the last week to provide a cover excuse for myself; as I tried to clear the swing trainer I somehow overarched my back, resulting in a back strain, which almost immobilized me from doing any PTI test (FBO SOC) for the last test, which I would not have passed anyway. But then it seemed comfortable it a twisted way and so that back sprain (which I found was not serious at all, but could last a long time) sort of became a source of self-pity/comfort and whatnot.
Anyway, I'm now probably doing nothing and currently enjoying this short moment while it lasts, especially there's nothing in the immediate future worth looking out for. Currently doing nothing at AFC HQ while waiting for ASLC (infantry course) to start, while others who have dropped out earlier got cushy admin posts without needing to downpes. My problem isn't exactly serious, and most likely I'll just go to ASLC, although I get an option to recourse PTI again. This is where the tricky part is:
If I choose to go PTI:
+ early nights, no outfield
+ at least I know the people and instructors and there will be no transition
+ less regimentation and discipline
+ a chance to know whether I can actually make it or just made of fail =/
- a chance that I might not pass
If I choose to go ASLC:
+ 99% confirm pass (since I've done SOC and whatnot)
+ overseas
- but that's Thailand.
- culture shock and have to adapt again
- late nights, outfield
Most likely, what my choice really makes doesn't really matter as if I choose to go PTI it is subject to approval from many layers of authority. So should I declare interest? And my physiotherapist said that my injury will OOC me any place I go, so mostly it's just a matter of where I ooc.
Anyway I've just requested to be posted as a clerk in Maju camp before aslc starts, to avoid the overwhelming mood of negativity with the other ooc'es and to get some fresh air.
Oh, and I watched No Strings Attached yesterday. It wasn't good.