Dream of Jamie/Lonley
I dreamt of Jamie last night. The first time in a little while yet still the feelings and emotions were just as strong.
I dreamt I came across her online using her username Ravenshade again. I cannot quite remember what she was doing online but I had come across her. I was trying to think whether I should approach her. Or rather I was trying to think of the best way to approach her. My dream ended before I did however.
I still miss her. It is going on 5 years now since she disapeared and my feelings are still so strong. I have been in a number of relationships RL and online and yet nobody ever evoked such strong feelings of love as Jamie did. There is nobody I would have done more for than Jamie.
I always said she was my soulmate, I still believe that. I think perhaps in the next life we shall get to be together.
I wish I knew what happened to her. She said her computer broke, she had financial problems. Was that the case? Or was it an excuse to end things? What if it was true and she got in an awful accident? What if as some suggested to me her roommate was not a roommate at all but her husband?
I am still torn up. I don't think I shall ever truly heal.
I just went on to see if there was a Ravenshade on second life. There is one, Ravenshade Magic. I wonder if that is her. It is not a common name but with all the people on Second life there is a good chance someone else could have used it. The account has no groups, no picture, nothing in profile though so it is likely it was created and the person did not take to second life and never came back. Could she have done that?
Perhaps all this is coming up because I feel lonly these days. I am drifiting away from so many friendships. I am making new ones but they are not the same. And my best friend has cast me out of her life thinking I did something I did not.
I dreamt I came across her online using her username Ravenshade again. I cannot quite remember what she was doing online but I had come across her. I was trying to think whether I should approach her. Or rather I was trying to think of the best way to approach her. My dream ended before I did however.
I still miss her. It is going on 5 years now since she disapeared and my feelings are still so strong. I have been in a number of relationships RL and online and yet nobody ever evoked such strong feelings of love as Jamie did. There is nobody I would have done more for than Jamie.
I always said she was my soulmate, I still believe that. I think perhaps in the next life we shall get to be together.
I wish I knew what happened to her. She said her computer broke, she had financial problems. Was that the case? Or was it an excuse to end things? What if it was true and she got in an awful accident? What if as some suggested to me her roommate was not a roommate at all but her husband?
I am still torn up. I don't think I shall ever truly heal.
I just went on to see if there was a Ravenshade on second life. There is one, Ravenshade Magic. I wonder if that is her. It is not a common name but with all the people on Second life there is a good chance someone else could have used it. The account has no groups, no picture, nothing in profile though so it is likely it was created and the person did not take to second life and never came back. Could she have done that?
Perhaps all this is coming up because I feel lonly these days. I am drifiting away from so many friendships. I am making new ones but they are not the same. And my best friend has cast me out of her life thinking I did something I did not.