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today i woke up thinking it was gonna be a marvelous day... in a way it was because i gained back my angel and i got to chill with my friends... but then again i hurt so many and i can't do shit to help them unfortunately i wish i could but i cant i wrote something its pretty long but i know it will help all of u who read it realize your mistakes beofre they escalate to something grave read it all please i hope it helps...
Life-pt. 1
Birth
Who am I?
How did I end up here?
Where am I?
Why am I here?
Open my eyes
Light
It stings
First pain
First lesson in life
Pain quickly subsides
Look around and see
A warm, loving woman
A strong, yet compassionate man
Who are you?
Mother and Father
First love
But all this is cut short
My chest hurts
My vision starts to blur
I cry
I breathe
The pain subsides
Breath
Find somewhere else to dwell
I go home
Learn some of life’s early lessons
Learn to crawl
Learn to walk
Learn to run
Learn to fly
But they exist
Those who try and cut your wings
The realists
The pessimists
First blow to the heart
First time to stand and fight
Won’t let them cut me down
Too strong to fall
I need to get out
Need to gain experience
To stand up to those who
Clip my wings
Life- pt.2
Learn
I age and grow
I strengthen and grow
I’m finally able to
Seek out knowledge for my own
Leave my parents side
Leave the nest and fly on me own
Find somewhere else to dwell
I go to school
Teach me great one
Teach me how to stand up to those
Those who cut me down
I try to learn from you
But how can u teach me a lesson
That is contrary to your beliefs
Taught by a realist
That I am limited
But in the process
My army grows
I meet those who have been cut down
Those who oppose the realists
Form friendships with them
They understand what it is
To be told that you are limited
They know the satisfaction
That is attained from disproving the pessimists
Fuck over the realists
You’re out-numbered
Yet we are too weak
One day we will gain strength
But in the mean time
I grow closer with my comrades
They are my friends
I give them my protection
Shield them from those who
Try to hurt them
I wish I could help them more
Sometimes I fail
And it wears at me
It hurts me
I want to hurt
I need to sacrifice it
Just so they won’t feel it
Life pt.3
Love
In my group of comrades
One stands out
She stirs something new inside
I’m 15
Gaining more and more strength
My senses becoming keener
New emotions being introduced to me
I never noticed it until now
She is beautiful
She is intelligent and witty
Strong yet confused
Aren’t we all?
But something peculiar about her
She has my same sentiments
She has my same heart
Maybe because I gave it to her
I approach her
I start up a conversation
I stutter and stumble over my words
My throat is in a knot
Same as my heart
I want to give you everything
Share everything I have with you
I met you in order to experience
One of the strongest emotions
Sometimes too strong to handle
But I continue onward
Because u gave me your heart
And I gave you mine
And I believe it’s in the right place
I know you’ll protect it
I know it will always protect you
I know that when you are weak
It will give u strength
I know when you slip
It will catch you
I know when you are suffocating
It will give you breath
I know when you may fail
It will prove that you were successful
I know that if you believe in yours
It will give you all the answers
Life pt. 4
Live
Now I seem to be developing
Seem to be reaching my maximum potential
Seem to be gaining enough power
Finally to crush the oppressors
With my army fully assembled
And the strongest weapon
Love on my side
I have all that I need
All the ingredients to rise up
All the ingredients to fly
To prove those who cut me down wrong
To show them that I can
To prove them that realism never works
Optimism always is the best medicine
Best weapon
Second to love of course
I march into battle
Armed and prepared
To take back what is rightfully mine
A chance to excel
A chance to soar above the rest
Maybe my head is getting to big
My ego is expanding
No one stands in my way
My army fights beside me
My army dies beside me
My army realizes
Is after all made of those who are like me
Those who also deserve a chance to excel
They see me indulge in glory
They see I’m given all the credit
But they were the ones who fell
And I was too weak to pick them up
But yet I’m hailed as the champion
I start to think I can make it on my own
Absolute power
Corrupts absolutely
I start becoming what I have opposed all my life
But I’m just too good
Nothing can bring me down
I am too powerful
I am too great
Life pt. 5
Death
Another battle the next day
What’s left of my armada seems to be diminishing
I fly into battle
With my semi locked and loaded
See my target take aim
Hit!
But my target wasn’t hit
I was
A cold steel bullet clean through my chest
My semi drops to the ground
I fall faster than my semi
My body cold and lifeless
Last vision I see
Is one of my old comrades
They hold the weapon of my demise
They saw my weakness and they took aim
Now I have fallen
I’m here dead and lifeless in the ground
I became what I always opposed
I cut so many down
When all I wanted to do was help everyone
I look upon all those I hurt
I look at that big pile of wings I severed
And I see all those I never gave the opportunity to soar
I was so concerned during my lifetime
Trying to fix everything
Never took the time to see how good it all was
But I became greedy
I wanted more
I lost sight of what I truly wanted
And all I wanted was to be given the ability to soar
But I cut the others down
Those who assured me I could soar
I forgot about them
I hurt them
I clipped their wings and put them in my cage
I didn’t even get to say I was sorry
But sorry doesn’t mean anything
I should have never done it to begin with
But now it’s too late
Dug myself too deep
Dug myself into my own tomb
Life-pt. 1
Birth
Who am I?
How did I end up here?
Where am I?
Why am I here?
Open my eyes
Light
It stings
First pain
First lesson in life
Pain quickly subsides
Look around and see
A warm, loving woman
A strong, yet compassionate man
Who are you?
Mother and Father
First love
But all this is cut short
My chest hurts
My vision starts to blur
I cry
I breathe
The pain subsides
Breath
Find somewhere else to dwell
I go home
Learn some of life’s early lessons
Learn to crawl
Learn to walk
Learn to run
Learn to fly
But they exist
Those who try and cut your wings
The realists
The pessimists
First blow to the heart
First time to stand and fight
Won’t let them cut me down
Too strong to fall
I need to get out
Need to gain experience
To stand up to those who
Clip my wings
Life- pt.2
Learn
I age and grow
I strengthen and grow
I’m finally able to
Seek out knowledge for my own
Leave my parents side
Leave the nest and fly on me own
Find somewhere else to dwell
I go to school
Teach me great one
Teach me how to stand up to those
Those who cut me down
I try to learn from you
But how can u teach me a lesson
That is contrary to your beliefs
Taught by a realist
That I am limited
But in the process
My army grows
I meet those who have been cut down
Those who oppose the realists
Form friendships with them
They understand what it is
To be told that you are limited
They know the satisfaction
That is attained from disproving the pessimists
Fuck over the realists
You’re out-numbered
Yet we are too weak
One day we will gain strength
But in the mean time
I grow closer with my comrades
They are my friends
I give them my protection
Shield them from those who
Try to hurt them
I wish I could help them more
Sometimes I fail
And it wears at me
It hurts me
I want to hurt
I need to sacrifice it
Just so they won’t feel it
Life pt.3
Love
In my group of comrades
One stands out
She stirs something new inside
I’m 15
Gaining more and more strength
My senses becoming keener
New emotions being introduced to me
I never noticed it until now
She is beautiful
She is intelligent and witty
Strong yet confused
Aren’t we all?
But something peculiar about her
She has my same sentiments
She has my same heart
Maybe because I gave it to her
I approach her
I start up a conversation
I stutter and stumble over my words
My throat is in a knot
Same as my heart
I want to give you everything
Share everything I have with you
I met you in order to experience
One of the strongest emotions
Sometimes too strong to handle
But I continue onward
Because u gave me your heart
And I gave you mine
And I believe it’s in the right place
I know you’ll protect it
I know it will always protect you
I know that when you are weak
It will give u strength
I know when you slip
It will catch you
I know when you are suffocating
It will give you breath
I know when you may fail
It will prove that you were successful
I know that if you believe in yours
It will give you all the answers
Life pt. 4
Live
Now I seem to be developing
Seem to be reaching my maximum potential
Seem to be gaining enough power
Finally to crush the oppressors
With my army fully assembled
And the strongest weapon
Love on my side
I have all that I need
All the ingredients to rise up
All the ingredients to fly
To prove those who cut me down wrong
To show them that I can
To prove them that realism never works
Optimism always is the best medicine
Best weapon
Second to love of course
I march into battle
Armed and prepared
To take back what is rightfully mine
A chance to excel
A chance to soar above the rest
Maybe my head is getting to big
My ego is expanding
No one stands in my way
My army fights beside me
My army dies beside me
My army realizes
Is after all made of those who are like me
Those who also deserve a chance to excel
They see me indulge in glory
They see I’m given all the credit
But they were the ones who fell
And I was too weak to pick them up
But yet I’m hailed as the champion
I start to think I can make it on my own
Absolute power
Corrupts absolutely
I start becoming what I have opposed all my life
But I’m just too good
Nothing can bring me down
I am too powerful
I am too great
Life pt. 5
Death
Another battle the next day
What’s left of my armada seems to be diminishing
I fly into battle
With my semi locked and loaded
See my target take aim
Hit!
But my target wasn’t hit
I was
A cold steel bullet clean through my chest
My semi drops to the ground
I fall faster than my semi
My body cold and lifeless
Last vision I see
Is one of my old comrades
They hold the weapon of my demise
They saw my weakness and they took aim
Now I have fallen
I’m here dead and lifeless in the ground
I became what I always opposed
I cut so many down
When all I wanted to do was help everyone
I look upon all those I hurt
I look at that big pile of wings I severed
And I see all those I never gave the opportunity to soar
I was so concerned during my lifetime
Trying to fix everything
Never took the time to see how good it all was
But I became greedy
I wanted more
I lost sight of what I truly wanted
And all I wanted was to be given the ability to soar
But I cut the others down
Those who assured me I could soar
I forgot about them
I hurt them
I clipped their wings and put them in my cage
I didn’t even get to say I was sorry
But sorry doesn’t mean anything
I should have never done it to begin with
But now it’s too late
Dug myself too deep
Dug myself into my own tomb