school journal parts...
Today’s June 2, 2004.
Oi found some Kill Hannah lyrics.
Unwanted:
I dedicate this song
To the boys who don't belong
To the girls who get it wrong
I’m dedicating this to the ones who don't exist
Are you hearing this?
Are you hearing this?
Unwanted
Unneeded
You’ve always been mistreated
HANG ON! (Don’t do what they say to)
Unwanted, and been for so long
Say, "hey mom! I’m never going home again!"
I dedicate this song to my boys who are strong
They just don't go along
I’m dedicating this to the girls who don't fit in
From the orphanage
Now hear this!
Unwanted
Unneeded
We’ve always been frustrated
HANG ON! (Don’t do what they say to do)
Unwanted
And been forever say,
"Hey mom! We’re never going home again!"
I dedicate this song
To the ones who don't belong
Unwanted
To the ones who don't belong
I know who you are
You’re unwanted
Needed
Wanted
Hang on! We’re never going home again.
Is anyone here alive?
Sunrise always burns my eyes,
And outside, there maybe zombies too.
The crawling mice in suits and ties
Are blind to what makes this thing beautiful.
Chorus:
Is anyone here alive?
Lift up the lids of your eyes!
Sunrise always burns my eyes, but I’m not tired
No I won't sleep for hours
This city's old and full of ghosts
I can see their skulls
It makes no sense at all
Is anyone here?
Is anyone...
I can't be the only one
I can't be the only one
Jeffy looks depressed. I’m going to write him a letter ^_^! Since I’m in a fairly good mood today, but it’d all go to shit when I get home. Oh yeah, I’m cleaning out my room!! YES!!!! It’s going pretty good so far, but I still have work to do on it when I get home. T_T
D’AWWWWW!!! I made Jeffy smile!! AWW!! That’s so cute!!! I called him sweetcakes and he smiled! I knew that’d make him smile!!! YES!! *Does a dance*
HELL FUCKING YES!!! TALON UPDATED HER RP WITH RADITZ/TURLES/ZARBON/SAGE!!!! YES YES YES!!! FUCK YEAH!!!!! And it’s smutty!! AHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH!!!!!!!!!!!!! *Goes berserk*
*~*
June 3, 2004
**
Sitting in his room, he looked at his hands. His face was shadowed by his spiky black locks, which covered his dull eyes. He could have just died right there, and he thought, that no one would even care. No one would even think about it.
“My lust it burns, deep inside…”
He smirked, crouching on the floor. Tonight he would hunt. Stalking to the door of his room, he existed, sniffing the air for danger. Everyone was a sleep, his wife, and his only son.
Goku’s vision hazed to a shady red, raising his ever-growing bloodlust. Inching towards his son’s room, he opened the door slowly, turning his stealth mode on. He smiled wickedly into the night, and slithered inside, coming up beside the sleeping form on the bed. Sharp fangs glimmered in the darkened room, white as the moon.
The saiyan ran a hand over the little body of his son, smirking evilly. He positioned his large hand over the boy’s throat, tucking the forefinger and his thumb over his breathing supply. Leaning in, he whispered into his sleeping son’s ear:
“Wake up, boy.”
The said boy stirred, and came to the waking world on his father’s order.
“D-dad?” He stuttered.
Goku smiled down at him, and applied the tiniest amount of pressure to the boy’s throat, warning him to keep still.
His son, his only son, was now 12 years old. He was a big boy now, and was certainly not stupid. He could see the fear of realization in the depths of those black innocent eyes.
“Do not move.” His father growled in a low aggressive voice. He could feel the spit being swallowed by the boy, and he smiled at that.
Standing up, still clutching his son’s throat he pulled him up as well, finally squeezing the throat in his hand. His son gave a chocked noise, his own hands grasping his father’s forearm, desperately trying to break free.
Goku laughed at his pathetic effort, and threw him across the room, smacking him into the nearby wall. He approached slowly. He kneeled in front of his son, as he watched him gasp for air holding his abused neck.
Bringing a hand up, he stroked the soft wild mane, speaking softly.
“Gohan… do you know what this night brings to you?” he asked. The boy looked up at his father with fear in them. Tears clouded them and he couldn’t see straight.
“Daddy? What’s wrong?” The little boy was so worried. This wasn’t like his father at all. He lunged himself at his father’s chest, and clung to him like a lifeline, the tears finally falling. Gohan felt his father’s arms wrap around him, burring him in his warmth and strength.
He had to be careful. Couldn’t let the boy scream his bloody lungs out… well, what left of his lungs he’ll have, he corrected himself, smirking at the thought. He grabbed him by his arms and looked into his eyes.
“Daddy… your… your eyes. Daddy your eyes are red…” Gohan reached up with his tiny hands and cupped his father’s face, eyes still all teary.
“Don’t worry about me Gohan, I’m fine. YOU need to worry about yourself though.” Goku smiled and grabbed his son’s wrists and slammed them against the wall high above the owner’s head.
The tall saiyan immediately formed two distinct ki rings, and chained his son to the wall by the wrists. Oh that was so lovely. His cub was chained, and helpless. That’s very nice.
“Why are you doing this?!” Gohan rasped, his shocked features delighting the other man. Suddenly his night shirt was torn from his chest, leaving him bare. A wicked laugh pounded in his ears as he felt a sharp tiny pain right in the middle of his chest. He looked down and he saw that his was his father’s finger… but he had… nails? Sharp nails, just barely puncturing the smooth skin of his chest.
“Have you heard of a thing called “Bloodlust”? You are saiyan, so you should know what it is.” Goku grinned. He then pulled a knife out of his pocket, and placed the tip to his chest where his finger just was. “Now, this is going to hurt, so I suggest you brace yourself.” He said casually. With that he thrust the knife’s tip forward, pushing the blade into the skin. Ah, there it is. That’s what he wanted, and he stopped when it hit the rib cage bone. His son’s screams were beautiful music to his ears.
Goku twisted the knife in his hand, and turned the blade. Blood poured from the boy’s chest, and came up through his mouth that led a trail down his chin. He sniffed and sampled it by running his tongue down his chin, lapping it up. /Tastes good…/ his thoughts whispered to him.
“Very nice boy.” He laughed as he pulled on the knife, spreading his ki to the handle, and drug the knife down to his son’s stomach, leaving a gaping wound, where the skin parted. His boy’s screams became louder and louder, which eventually turned into shrieks.
He dropped the knife, and took both of his hands and grabbed the parted flesh, and pulled them apart, revealing his inner organs more clearly. Blood dripped on his hands, and flowed on the floor, making a small stream. His prizes. There they are.
He grabbed the intestines of the boy’s stomach, and pulled on them, making them gush with blood. Laughing insanely he pulled them until they came unattached to the inside.
The boy was barely alive, still ki restrained to the wall, he lost his voice from the hoarse screaming, and intense pain. He was beyond pain, he could feel nothing but pain. He looked up into his once loving and caring father, and looked into the eyes of a mad man no, a saiyan… a saiyan that yearned for bloodlust, the man that had gone into rut. He couldn’t feel anymore
He reached up into the hollowness of the boy’s rib cage, and grasped the ultimate prize that waited for him. His blood soaked hand gripped the muscle that was the size of a fist, and he pulled on it, which came loose, and he could feel it still pulsing in his hand as he released the boy from the ki bands, and watched him fall to the ground, dead. The heart of his son slowed its dying beat, and finally came to a rest.
**
I really don’t know what’s going on… I mean, Kakarot… he’s acting really strange lately. All I can do is think of these insane plots, and the images, everything… the wanting of the blood on my hands… the… Heh, bloodlust. That’s what it is… but it’s inhuman, and I can surely stop myself, but I can’t stop imagining as to how it would be. Everything is just so… much. He really is insane. My muse is fucking insane!!! Now I find that I can fully read “The Courage of your Convictions” by Catharine ^_^
Wow, I’m almost done with the fic, and it ain’t so bad, but DAMN!!
*~*
Well, speaking of that story, “The Courage of your Convictions” I did finish it, and it was truly sad at the end, but it was for the better that Kakarot died. Very intense! Anyways, today’s the 7th of June, 2004. I’m reading one of Firecracker’s stories, called “Dark Nightmare.” Such a great rut story of our two favorite saiyans ^_^
Man, I’m so freaking exhausted!! This past weekend was just full of hectic chaos! Sunday was the worst too. I had to get up and work, and I didn’t sleep very well on Saturday either, so I was tired from the start, and then when I got home I tried to take a little break but then Tory called and wanted me to help him move a macaw cage, and take it out to Care Free Gardens. UGH! And then after I got home, I finally got a few hours worth of a break, until Amy came and got me, and I cleaned macaw cages all night, had a little break again and went home. Got home around 10 pm, and I was actually a little over tired, and couldn’t get to sleep right away, but I finally got some good rest, and fell asleep. Woke up and started the next day, which is today! Monday!! So tired, but I refuse to take naps or whatever. ^^! That’s only because I’m stubborn, and I can just read then!!!
I do NOT feel like doing any work today for some reason! DAMN!! Seriously, I just don’t have that energy to work right now. All I want to do is read… -_- I don’t even think I want to write… that’s not good, cause I have little plot bunnies growing… *frowns* my mind wants to write, but my body does not. Speaking of writing, I need to ask Pandora-Chan to at least give me some advice for chapter three on Bounty Hunters or something, because I am so stumped it’s pathetic -_-… Damn, and I really want to continue with that story too!! But chapter threes in stories, always get me, and I always get stuck. Maybe I can ask Nikki for some advice on it. She’s going to be reading chapter two soon, and I’m a little nervous to say the least.
Hee hee!! I’m drawing saiyan tails!! WOOHOO!!!! I actually like how they came out too!! ^_^ It’s on my doodle page of rough draft crap! HAHAH!!! Must…. Read… “Dark Nightmares”… by… Firecracker…. Ah!!!!
YEAH!!!! I got to read it. All of it!! YAY!!! That’s such an awesome story!!! Pure smut, pure saiyan smut! Good for the senses ne?! HA! That’s right it is! I’m glad that I got to print most of it out though, at home of course. Aye, we have no more printing paper now. That story is 197 pages long!!! And I had only 97 pages that were printed out, before I ran out of paper. -_- *Sulks* Which really sucks too, because I’ll probably get in trouble now with Mom and Dad, asking why the printing paper is all gone. I should probably go and buy some huh? Yeah, I think I will, since I used up all the paper. It’s only fair I think.
I didn’t get to post my stuff tonight on my Live Journal. Damn! Ah well, I can always do it tomorrow, I suppose. I have to get working on the rest of my shit, or I’ll be damned! Curses! This fucking sucks! However, I cannot stress on this, I need to keep calm about it and think that I can. I certainly do not believe that I can do this, but I can THINK that I can…. I don’t know though… So tired…
My batteries in my CD player went dead!! NOOOOOO!!!!! Damn… oh well. I’ll just have to get new ones I surmise.
Oh I checked out the Doujin Box to see if they had any new doujinshi, and they had a Turles x Kakarot one!! WOOOHOOOO!!! Oh man, and they had a preview of it too!! HOT HOT HOT!!!!! Very nice indeed! I think it was a sequel to Lieden Shaft!!! I want to get it too!!!! *Sobs* Maybe if I can muster up enough money, I’ll be able to. Ye know, cause I get paid this week, and I have like 15 dollars right now, so yeah… I think I just gotta do it ye know. Treat myself to something. Saturday, I believe it was, was when Celga Inc credited my shipping order. So I’m very pleased to hear that. But anyways, it’s time to go. See ya!
*~*
Ack! Today’s June 8th. 2004. Tuesday.
*Rolls eyes* Jeff wants to buy me roses… -_- Why waste his money when I can get them out of my back yard? *Shakes head* He’s such a dork sometimes.
*Sobs* I think he lost the essay that I re-typed for him!!!! NOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!! I worked so hard on that too!!! Ah damnit!!!! Oh well, makes no different to me.
*Snickers* Jeff asked me if it bothered me that he gave me a peck after he walked me up to my door on the night of prom. *Shudders* I couldn’t believe he did that!!! Blah!! Ew ew ew… it turns my stomach… blah!
O_O Turles is back!!!!! HE JUST WALKED IN!!!!!! AHHHHHHH!!!!! *Glomps him* OMG OMG OMG!!!! SQUEE!!!! *Hugs and squeezes him* I misses my muse!!!!! J J J
Chibi Turles muse: *stumbles in, gets attacked by Celipa* ACK! Sheesh, I was only gone for a little while!!! *Ruffles her hair* Sa… I know it seems long, but I needed a vacation, like everyone. *Smiles*
Me: I know but I just missed you so much!! And Kakarot was being an asshole, and he wouldn’t cooperate with me on Bounty Hunters, and he was being all insane like!! He made me write this EVIL plot bunny damnit!!
Chibi Turles muse: *blinks* Kakarot? That bakayaro, I’ll kick his ass for you, and then maybe do something else *wink wink*
Me: *huge grin* YAY!!! *Hugs Turles* I loves you!!! J
Chibi Turles muse: *rubs back of head and laughs* Love ye too, now, lets get back to Bounty Hunters ne? I’ve a couple of ideas that are brewing anyways. Dinna worry, I’ll be a total asshole to Kakarot, and find out what the hell his problem is. Besides, I can do it if I want to, I’m his mate ^_^ *coils tail around his waist and stalks off in search of Kakarot* I’ve been kind of lonely too, so he’s in a big ass whipping when I see him! Gotta release some frustration!!! *Cackles*
Me: *Watches her muse go* Oh I’m so glad that he’s back. It’s been so lonely without Turley-san. Maybe Kakarot will settle down now. I know rut season is just on its way for him, and he’ll probably trigger Turles’s hormones and send him into rut as well. Horny saiyans.
So yeah, Turles is promising me some good ideas for Bounty Hunters now. That’s good because I’m totally stumped on Chapter Three! Hasn’t a clue as to what I want to put in there. Kakarot’s being a stubborn ass, as usual *rolls eyes* Asshole. He’s debating whether or not he can trust Turles or not. His dad beat him, and he’s not very trustful of anyone, that’s why he left Vegetasei. But he left without his father’s consent, and now, if he returns, his dad will kill him! Bardock’s not very nice in BH. Not at all. Turles is just going to work on trying to get Kakarot to even talk to him without an attitude. Kakarot’s rough only because Bardock MADE him like that. The saiyan duo still needs to find out where to find Samuel Fig, before any of the other bounty hunters do. Kakarot’s desperate for cash, and Turles is too, so they’re going to, of course, duke it out. But the main question is, “How to capture the criminal, and how to split up the money?” Turles is still making Kakarot go home, because he didn’t tell him why he HAD to stay. Two voices appeared, and they seem to be his conscience guides. One says to stay, and one says to get the hell out of there before Turles harms him. Kakarot’s own persona wishes to stay with Turles, because he thinks he can trust him, and even bond. But the voices are persistent, and will go at all costs to make him leave, to drive Turles off. Poor Kakarot, he’s so confused!!!! NEXT TIME ON BOUNTY HUNTERS!!!! Uh… well… I don’t really know what’s going to happen next… but I’ll figure it out, since my muse is back ^_^. I’m so happy that he’s back! It feels like forever since he took that vacation! I felt it, right when he came in! I love Turles!
I emailed Pandora-Chan and asked her if she could help me with some ideas, and plot formation on Bounty Hunters. I hope she’ll be able to help. I’m still not all too good at this writing thing, but the muses are a BIG help!!! YAY!!! Turley-san… *gushes*
*Reads the task for lesson 8, in PowerPoint* HHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!! It says that I’ve been elected Governor of the State of ____ (I have to select a state). The Office of Tourism has just informed me that not enough people are visiting my state (go figure ne?). I must find a way to attract more visitors. So, I must make a slide show, no, an OUTSTADING slide show to bring in the crowd. *Snickers* OH I have the perfect idea, but I don’t think I can use it. *Wicked grin* Hn… seems like Turles’s idea ~_^
Idea:
Capture saiyans, and dress them up in bondage for people to watch, and even will be able to auction on some of the saiyans. Most prized male saiyans will be in this really spiffy room, where they’ll please the on lookers with teases of their tails, and light touches of the other males. ~_^ Female saiyans will be put up in the observatory, dressed in spandex body suits. Pregnant and cub holder saiyans will be put into the glass observatory, so people can watch them interact with their cubs and mates ^_^
*~*
New day, Wednesday June 9, 2004.
New band that I found, called Dimmu Borgir. Awesome awesome band!!! HELL YES!! It’s a kick ass band! I really like them a lot! I found another band called Alien Ant Farm; they have a couple of songs that I like.
*Reads Jeff’s letter* Wha? I don’t understand him sometimes. His letters confuse me! HAHAH!! I’m going to try and translate it now… oh yeah, still working on that stupid slide show thing on PowerPoint. -_- it’s gay… I’m almost done with it just have to conclude it.
Ack! I just tried to go to the Yaoi Hotel and it said that the page wouldn’t load!!! ARG!! I wanted to read Firecracker’s fic damnit!!!
There. I’m done with my PowerPoint slide show! YAY!!! NEXT!!!! LOL!
Ah fuck. Now I have to do Excel Microsoft -_- I hate data charts…
*~*
June 10, 2004.
That Excel shit was fucking stupid -_- I hated it!
*~*
Well, today is the last day of school. And boy does it suck! I’ve decided not to print this thing out. It’d be too much, and the teachers would be suspicious.
Oi found some Kill Hannah lyrics.
Unwanted:
I dedicate this song
To the boys who don't belong
To the girls who get it wrong
I’m dedicating this to the ones who don't exist
Are you hearing this?
Are you hearing this?
Unwanted
Unneeded
You’ve always been mistreated
HANG ON! (Don’t do what they say to)
Unwanted, and been for so long
Say, "hey mom! I’m never going home again!"
I dedicate this song to my boys who are strong
They just don't go along
I’m dedicating this to the girls who don't fit in
From the orphanage
Now hear this!
Unwanted
Unneeded
We’ve always been frustrated
HANG ON! (Don’t do what they say to do)
Unwanted
And been forever say,
"Hey mom! We’re never going home again!"
I dedicate this song
To the ones who don't belong
Unwanted
To the ones who don't belong
I know who you are
You’re unwanted
Needed
Wanted
Hang on! We’re never going home again.
Is anyone here alive?
Sunrise always burns my eyes,
And outside, there maybe zombies too.
The crawling mice in suits and ties
Are blind to what makes this thing beautiful.
Chorus:
Is anyone here alive?
Lift up the lids of your eyes!
Sunrise always burns my eyes, but I’m not tired
No I won't sleep for hours
This city's old and full of ghosts
I can see their skulls
It makes no sense at all
Is anyone here?
Is anyone...
I can't be the only one
I can't be the only one
Jeffy looks depressed. I’m going to write him a letter ^_^! Since I’m in a fairly good mood today, but it’d all go to shit when I get home. Oh yeah, I’m cleaning out my room!! YES!!!! It’s going pretty good so far, but I still have work to do on it when I get home. T_T
D’AWWWWW!!! I made Jeffy smile!! AWW!! That’s so cute!!! I called him sweetcakes and he smiled! I knew that’d make him smile!!! YES!! *Does a dance*
HELL FUCKING YES!!! TALON UPDATED HER RP WITH RADITZ/TURLES/ZARBON/SAGE!!!! YES YES YES!!! FUCK YEAH!!!!! And it’s smutty!! AHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH!!!!!!!!!!!!! *Goes berserk*
*~*
June 3, 2004
**
Sitting in his room, he looked at his hands. His face was shadowed by his spiky black locks, which covered his dull eyes. He could have just died right there, and he thought, that no one would even care. No one would even think about it.
“My lust it burns, deep inside…”
He smirked, crouching on the floor. Tonight he would hunt. Stalking to the door of his room, he existed, sniffing the air for danger. Everyone was a sleep, his wife, and his only son.
Goku’s vision hazed to a shady red, raising his ever-growing bloodlust. Inching towards his son’s room, he opened the door slowly, turning his stealth mode on. He smiled wickedly into the night, and slithered inside, coming up beside the sleeping form on the bed. Sharp fangs glimmered in the darkened room, white as the moon.
The saiyan ran a hand over the little body of his son, smirking evilly. He positioned his large hand over the boy’s throat, tucking the forefinger and his thumb over his breathing supply. Leaning in, he whispered into his sleeping son’s ear:
“Wake up, boy.”
The said boy stirred, and came to the waking world on his father’s order.
“D-dad?” He stuttered.
Goku smiled down at him, and applied the tiniest amount of pressure to the boy’s throat, warning him to keep still.
His son, his only son, was now 12 years old. He was a big boy now, and was certainly not stupid. He could see the fear of realization in the depths of those black innocent eyes.
“Do not move.” His father growled in a low aggressive voice. He could feel the spit being swallowed by the boy, and he smiled at that.
Standing up, still clutching his son’s throat he pulled him up as well, finally squeezing the throat in his hand. His son gave a chocked noise, his own hands grasping his father’s forearm, desperately trying to break free.
Goku laughed at his pathetic effort, and threw him across the room, smacking him into the nearby wall. He approached slowly. He kneeled in front of his son, as he watched him gasp for air holding his abused neck.
Bringing a hand up, he stroked the soft wild mane, speaking softly.
“Gohan… do you know what this night brings to you?” he asked. The boy looked up at his father with fear in them. Tears clouded them and he couldn’t see straight.
“Daddy? What’s wrong?” The little boy was so worried. This wasn’t like his father at all. He lunged himself at his father’s chest, and clung to him like a lifeline, the tears finally falling. Gohan felt his father’s arms wrap around him, burring him in his warmth and strength.
He had to be careful. Couldn’t let the boy scream his bloody lungs out… well, what left of his lungs he’ll have, he corrected himself, smirking at the thought. He grabbed him by his arms and looked into his eyes.
“Daddy… your… your eyes. Daddy your eyes are red…” Gohan reached up with his tiny hands and cupped his father’s face, eyes still all teary.
“Don’t worry about me Gohan, I’m fine. YOU need to worry about yourself though.” Goku smiled and grabbed his son’s wrists and slammed them against the wall high above the owner’s head.
The tall saiyan immediately formed two distinct ki rings, and chained his son to the wall by the wrists. Oh that was so lovely. His cub was chained, and helpless. That’s very nice.
“Why are you doing this?!” Gohan rasped, his shocked features delighting the other man. Suddenly his night shirt was torn from his chest, leaving him bare. A wicked laugh pounded in his ears as he felt a sharp tiny pain right in the middle of his chest. He looked down and he saw that his was his father’s finger… but he had… nails? Sharp nails, just barely puncturing the smooth skin of his chest.
“Have you heard of a thing called “Bloodlust”? You are saiyan, so you should know what it is.” Goku grinned. He then pulled a knife out of his pocket, and placed the tip to his chest where his finger just was. “Now, this is going to hurt, so I suggest you brace yourself.” He said casually. With that he thrust the knife’s tip forward, pushing the blade into the skin. Ah, there it is. That’s what he wanted, and he stopped when it hit the rib cage bone. His son’s screams were beautiful music to his ears.
Goku twisted the knife in his hand, and turned the blade. Blood poured from the boy’s chest, and came up through his mouth that led a trail down his chin. He sniffed and sampled it by running his tongue down his chin, lapping it up. /Tastes good…/ his thoughts whispered to him.
“Very nice boy.” He laughed as he pulled on the knife, spreading his ki to the handle, and drug the knife down to his son’s stomach, leaving a gaping wound, where the skin parted. His boy’s screams became louder and louder, which eventually turned into shrieks.
He dropped the knife, and took both of his hands and grabbed the parted flesh, and pulled them apart, revealing his inner organs more clearly. Blood dripped on his hands, and flowed on the floor, making a small stream. His prizes. There they are.
He grabbed the intestines of the boy’s stomach, and pulled on them, making them gush with blood. Laughing insanely he pulled them until they came unattached to the inside.
The boy was barely alive, still ki restrained to the wall, he lost his voice from the hoarse screaming, and intense pain. He was beyond pain, he could feel nothing but pain. He looked up into his once loving and caring father, and looked into the eyes of a mad man no, a saiyan… a saiyan that yearned for bloodlust, the man that had gone into rut. He couldn’t feel anymore
He reached up into the hollowness of the boy’s rib cage, and grasped the ultimate prize that waited for him. His blood soaked hand gripped the muscle that was the size of a fist, and he pulled on it, which came loose, and he could feel it still pulsing in his hand as he released the boy from the ki bands, and watched him fall to the ground, dead. The heart of his son slowed its dying beat, and finally came to a rest.
**
I really don’t know what’s going on… I mean, Kakarot… he’s acting really strange lately. All I can do is think of these insane plots, and the images, everything… the wanting of the blood on my hands… the… Heh, bloodlust. That’s what it is… but it’s inhuman, and I can surely stop myself, but I can’t stop imagining as to how it would be. Everything is just so… much. He really is insane. My muse is fucking insane!!! Now I find that I can fully read “The Courage of your Convictions” by Catharine ^_^
Wow, I’m almost done with the fic, and it ain’t so bad, but DAMN!!
*~*
Well, speaking of that story, “The Courage of your Convictions” I did finish it, and it was truly sad at the end, but it was for the better that Kakarot died. Very intense! Anyways, today’s the 7th of June, 2004. I’m reading one of Firecracker’s stories, called “Dark Nightmare.” Such a great rut story of our two favorite saiyans ^_^
Man, I’m so freaking exhausted!! This past weekend was just full of hectic chaos! Sunday was the worst too. I had to get up and work, and I didn’t sleep very well on Saturday either, so I was tired from the start, and then when I got home I tried to take a little break but then Tory called and wanted me to help him move a macaw cage, and take it out to Care Free Gardens. UGH! And then after I got home, I finally got a few hours worth of a break, until Amy came and got me, and I cleaned macaw cages all night, had a little break again and went home. Got home around 10 pm, and I was actually a little over tired, and couldn’t get to sleep right away, but I finally got some good rest, and fell asleep. Woke up and started the next day, which is today! Monday!! So tired, but I refuse to take naps or whatever. ^^! That’s only because I’m stubborn, and I can just read then!!!
I do NOT feel like doing any work today for some reason! DAMN!! Seriously, I just don’t have that energy to work right now. All I want to do is read… -_- I don’t even think I want to write… that’s not good, cause I have little plot bunnies growing… *frowns* my mind wants to write, but my body does not. Speaking of writing, I need to ask Pandora-Chan to at least give me some advice for chapter three on Bounty Hunters or something, because I am so stumped it’s pathetic -_-… Damn, and I really want to continue with that story too!! But chapter threes in stories, always get me, and I always get stuck. Maybe I can ask Nikki for some advice on it. She’s going to be reading chapter two soon, and I’m a little nervous to say the least.
Hee hee!! I’m drawing saiyan tails!! WOOHOO!!!! I actually like how they came out too!! ^_^ It’s on my doodle page of rough draft crap! HAHAH!!! Must…. Read… “Dark Nightmares”… by… Firecracker…. Ah!!!!
YEAH!!!! I got to read it. All of it!! YAY!!! That’s such an awesome story!!! Pure smut, pure saiyan smut! Good for the senses ne?! HA! That’s right it is! I’m glad that I got to print most of it out though, at home of course. Aye, we have no more printing paper now. That story is 197 pages long!!! And I had only 97 pages that were printed out, before I ran out of paper. -_- *Sulks* Which really sucks too, because I’ll probably get in trouble now with Mom and Dad, asking why the printing paper is all gone. I should probably go and buy some huh? Yeah, I think I will, since I used up all the paper. It’s only fair I think.
I didn’t get to post my stuff tonight on my Live Journal. Damn! Ah well, I can always do it tomorrow, I suppose. I have to get working on the rest of my shit, or I’ll be damned! Curses! This fucking sucks! However, I cannot stress on this, I need to keep calm about it and think that I can. I certainly do not believe that I can do this, but I can THINK that I can…. I don’t know though… So tired…
My batteries in my CD player went dead!! NOOOOOO!!!!! Damn… oh well. I’ll just have to get new ones I surmise.
Oh I checked out the Doujin Box to see if they had any new doujinshi, and they had a Turles x Kakarot one!! WOOOHOOOO!!! Oh man, and they had a preview of it too!! HOT HOT HOT!!!!! Very nice indeed! I think it was a sequel to Lieden Shaft!!! I want to get it too!!!! *Sobs* Maybe if I can muster up enough money, I’ll be able to. Ye know, cause I get paid this week, and I have like 15 dollars right now, so yeah… I think I just gotta do it ye know. Treat myself to something. Saturday, I believe it was, was when Celga Inc credited my shipping order. So I’m very pleased to hear that. But anyways, it’s time to go. See ya!
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Ack! Today’s June 8th. 2004. Tuesday.
*Rolls eyes* Jeff wants to buy me roses… -_- Why waste his money when I can get them out of my back yard? *Shakes head* He’s such a dork sometimes.
*Sobs* I think he lost the essay that I re-typed for him!!!! NOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!! I worked so hard on that too!!! Ah damnit!!!! Oh well, makes no different to me.
*Snickers* Jeff asked me if it bothered me that he gave me a peck after he walked me up to my door on the night of prom. *Shudders* I couldn’t believe he did that!!! Blah!! Ew ew ew… it turns my stomach… blah!
O_O Turles is back!!!!! HE JUST WALKED IN!!!!!! AHHHHHHH!!!!! *Glomps him* OMG OMG OMG!!!! SQUEE!!!! *Hugs and squeezes him* I misses my muse!!!!! J J J
Chibi Turles muse: *stumbles in, gets attacked by Celipa* ACK! Sheesh, I was only gone for a little while!!! *Ruffles her hair* Sa… I know it seems long, but I needed a vacation, like everyone. *Smiles*
Me: I know but I just missed you so much!! And Kakarot was being an asshole, and he wouldn’t cooperate with me on Bounty Hunters, and he was being all insane like!! He made me write this EVIL plot bunny damnit!!
Chibi Turles muse: *blinks* Kakarot? That bakayaro, I’ll kick his ass for you, and then maybe do something else *wink wink*
Me: *huge grin* YAY!!! *Hugs Turles* I loves you!!! J
Chibi Turles muse: *rubs back of head and laughs* Love ye too, now, lets get back to Bounty Hunters ne? I’ve a couple of ideas that are brewing anyways. Dinna worry, I’ll be a total asshole to Kakarot, and find out what the hell his problem is. Besides, I can do it if I want to, I’m his mate ^_^ *coils tail around his waist and stalks off in search of Kakarot* I’ve been kind of lonely too, so he’s in a big ass whipping when I see him! Gotta release some frustration!!! *Cackles*
Me: *Watches her muse go* Oh I’m so glad that he’s back. It’s been so lonely without Turley-san. Maybe Kakarot will settle down now. I know rut season is just on its way for him, and he’ll probably trigger Turles’s hormones and send him into rut as well. Horny saiyans.
So yeah, Turles is promising me some good ideas for Bounty Hunters now. That’s good because I’m totally stumped on Chapter Three! Hasn’t a clue as to what I want to put in there. Kakarot’s being a stubborn ass, as usual *rolls eyes* Asshole. He’s debating whether or not he can trust Turles or not. His dad beat him, and he’s not very trustful of anyone, that’s why he left Vegetasei. But he left without his father’s consent, and now, if he returns, his dad will kill him! Bardock’s not very nice in BH. Not at all. Turles is just going to work on trying to get Kakarot to even talk to him without an attitude. Kakarot’s rough only because Bardock MADE him like that. The saiyan duo still needs to find out where to find Samuel Fig, before any of the other bounty hunters do. Kakarot’s desperate for cash, and Turles is too, so they’re going to, of course, duke it out. But the main question is, “How to capture the criminal, and how to split up the money?” Turles is still making Kakarot go home, because he didn’t tell him why he HAD to stay. Two voices appeared, and they seem to be his conscience guides. One says to stay, and one says to get the hell out of there before Turles harms him. Kakarot’s own persona wishes to stay with Turles, because he thinks he can trust him, and even bond. But the voices are persistent, and will go at all costs to make him leave, to drive Turles off. Poor Kakarot, he’s so confused!!!! NEXT TIME ON BOUNTY HUNTERS!!!! Uh… well… I don’t really know what’s going to happen next… but I’ll figure it out, since my muse is back ^_^. I’m so happy that he’s back! It feels like forever since he took that vacation! I felt it, right when he came in! I love Turles!
I emailed Pandora-Chan and asked her if she could help me with some ideas, and plot formation on Bounty Hunters. I hope she’ll be able to help. I’m still not all too good at this writing thing, but the muses are a BIG help!!! YAY!!! Turley-san… *gushes*
*Reads the task for lesson 8, in PowerPoint* HHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!! It says that I’ve been elected Governor of the State of ____ (I have to select a state). The Office of Tourism has just informed me that not enough people are visiting my state (go figure ne?). I must find a way to attract more visitors. So, I must make a slide show, no, an OUTSTADING slide show to bring in the crowd. *Snickers* OH I have the perfect idea, but I don’t think I can use it. *Wicked grin* Hn… seems like Turles’s idea ~_^
Idea:
Capture saiyans, and dress them up in bondage for people to watch, and even will be able to auction on some of the saiyans. Most prized male saiyans will be in this really spiffy room, where they’ll please the on lookers with teases of their tails, and light touches of the other males. ~_^ Female saiyans will be put up in the observatory, dressed in spandex body suits. Pregnant and cub holder saiyans will be put into the glass observatory, so people can watch them interact with their cubs and mates ^_^
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New day, Wednesday June 9, 2004.
New band that I found, called Dimmu Borgir. Awesome awesome band!!! HELL YES!! It’s a kick ass band! I really like them a lot! I found another band called Alien Ant Farm; they have a couple of songs that I like.
*Reads Jeff’s letter* Wha? I don’t understand him sometimes. His letters confuse me! HAHAH!! I’m going to try and translate it now… oh yeah, still working on that stupid slide show thing on PowerPoint. -_- it’s gay… I’m almost done with it just have to conclude it.
Ack! I just tried to go to the Yaoi Hotel and it said that the page wouldn’t load!!! ARG!! I wanted to read Firecracker’s fic damnit!!!
There. I’m done with my PowerPoint slide show! YAY!!! NEXT!!!! LOL!
Ah fuck. Now I have to do Excel Microsoft -_- I hate data charts…
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June 10, 2004.
That Excel shit was fucking stupid -_- I hated it!
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Well, today is the last day of school. And boy does it suck! I’ve decided not to print this thing out. It’d be too much, and the teachers would be suspicious.