The Song of Goodbye
Title: The Song of Goodbye
Character: Nakai
Genre: Friendship
A/N: I don't own the boys, only this weird fic.
~oThe Song of Goodbye~
“I’m leaving.”
I remember those words clearly. Five pairs of eyes looked at you then, one of them my own. Of course we didn’t expect that from you. At first I thought you were playing around. But… If there’s someone who knows when you’re pulling a prank, it would be me. I would know, and at that time, you frightened me because I could sense the truth
“I’m leaving.”
Two words. With those two words did you realize that you managed to completely destroy the internal balance of the group? Seriously, even without exchanging words between the others I knew there was a brewing storm…
You kept quiet after that, and out of respect, I didn’t bother to ask. Things will unfold at their own pace.
At first I thought you were just looking for a way out. After all, things aren’t going well according to anyone’s plan. Time passes and still… Well, that was what I thought. Maybe I should’ve asked you that before you left, but I gather you wouldn’t take me seriously.
Dream… Follow your dream… How can I not back you up after that? Your determination, your strength to let go. As much as it hurt any one of us, we know it would be for your own good. And we’re not going to leave you behind. Hahahaha. How can I say that when you’re the one leaving us? Weird isn’t it? But believe me, we are not going to leave you behind. Especially me.
This will be the last time we’ll be with you. And as much as I would like for it to be memorable, I just know I can’t. Well, we have too many things in front of us right now it’s become impossible to have a little farewell chat. Hahahahahaha
Someone had played the song we are to sing and in my mind I ran through the words, thinking of how I can manage to sing without bawling like a baby and lose my dignity in front of a whole nation. But in the end I had to give up. Come what may, I don’t care if I cry like a river. It’s as if I can stop my tears.
While practicing you were looking at each and every one of us, taking little sideward glances when you thought no one was looking. But I was. I saw that look in your eyes, half suffering, half relieved. Suffering because you know what the rest of us will put up with after this. But at the same time you were relieved to be going on your way at last. Freedom, right? Hahahahahaha
Hey, do you remember the days we spent together? It was fun right? How long has it been? Hmmm 8 years. Can you imagine that? Watching you now, all those memories are coming back. Of how we met, of how we used to have fun. You’ve been my partner in crime, and even though I’d still maintain that you’re a bit too soft. Well, we had loads of fun before, All those stories, the laughter… I will miss that. I did say before that you’ve become a little dull. Well, I just wished that things would go back the way it used to be. Because well… uh… it seems like we’ve grown apart a little. There I’ve said it. In the past few months I’m wondering why something kind of changed between us. You started to become distant… I don’t know but that’s how I see things. Maybe it’s because you were thinking about leaving then? Well I wouldn’t know. But I wish you the best…
I don’t think I can sing during the take. Well I normally can’t but now it’s different. I just can’t say those words because it’s like confirming my worst fears. Because up until now I still have this illusion that everything’s just a bad dream. A skit. A prank. But that song, somehow it tears me apart. And even though I want to sing with you for one last time, I know the words will end up choked by tears.Because you’re leaving. Because… Because…
Best friend, best friend, an important person…