I feel like crying
I suddenly just got slapped by reality. Between the wedding, graduation and other recent events I had an epiphany that made me sick to my stomach. because I know now that who I am and who I am becoming is exactally who I want to be. but the person I want to be is not the kind of person who will start out adulthood with happiness. But I relieze now that I will end up unbelievably happy. I just dont know if I am ready to go that low to get that high.
It feels like Im graduating now, it finnally set in.
Some time this weeek I need to spend hours of time with esme. I need to talk to her.
The wedding was very confusing because I didnt know what was goin gon and no one else did. not even my aunt. I got home at 12:30pm. It would have been earlier but Matt got sick so we rested for a bit. We talked the entire drive home and I really enjoyed it becuase we had been fighting for almost 24 hours by that time and I was so tired of fighting with him. My Aunt looked beautiful and the mooses were cute. I got to see all of my family and intoduce matt to them and they all loved him. That made me happy and he was invited to christmas with the family...I like big family christmas's. I feel bad for being so bitchy to everyone because I was so afraid of ruining my aunts wedding but things came together nicely and no one but the musicians knew any different.
Thank You all for coming down and performing and putting up with me!
but the crying=not fun.
It feels like Im graduating now, it finnally set in.
Some time this weeek I need to spend hours of time with esme. I need to talk to her.
The wedding was very confusing because I didnt know what was goin gon and no one else did. not even my aunt. I got home at 12:30pm. It would have been earlier but Matt got sick so we rested for a bit. We talked the entire drive home and I really enjoyed it becuase we had been fighting for almost 24 hours by that time and I was so tired of fighting with him. My Aunt looked beautiful and the mooses were cute. I got to see all of my family and intoduce matt to them and they all loved him. That made me happy and he was invited to christmas with the family...I like big family christmas's. I feel bad for being so bitchy to everyone because I was so afraid of ruining my aunts wedding but things came together nicely and no one but the musicians knew any different.
Thank You all for coming down and performing and putting up with me!
but the crying=not fun.