Please God, HAVE MERCY ON ME!!!
How much must I loose???
-My grandfather is DYING!!! I know I should have stayed strong, but I cried today... I don't know if he knew... I tried to be quiet, but the tears flowed from my eyes and would not stop. He squeezed my hand, and at one point opened his eyes for me. I have such a dull life I tried to just keep talking to him about things so he could hear my voice and hopefully know that I was beside him... and that I love him. That man has been like a father to me.
-My new boss hates me at work, and is going through the steps to have me fired (which I have a pretty good lawsuit due to the fact I'm really good at what I do and this is completely unjust)
-the one person... I've ever TRUELY loved unconditionally, and with all my heart... is the ONLY fucking person in my life that has even offered some modicomb of support...he can't even help because now I hurt for what I lost before... what I'll never have again, and now I feel as if I have lost it all over again. I have tried so vainly to get over you... I have tried so desperately to replace you... and no no avail. I'm to live with the knowledge of everything I belived in with you... and know that I shall never have that again. And right now I would give ANYTHING just to have you hold me. I need you.
-My mother and Jacob will be down... to add to my greif...
-I'm trying to stay strong for my grandmother... but more and more I'm finding it harder and harder to even get out of bed... and why I'm in bed makes no sense as I can't sleep...
Release me from this pain... please God send me the half of myself that is missing, I really need to be held right now. I need someone to complete me right now because I feel so empty and alone. I can't go on like this, I really desperately need someone to take care of me right now. Please God... offer me some comfort and mercy?
-My grandfather is DYING!!! I know I should have stayed strong, but I cried today... I don't know if he knew... I tried to be quiet, but the tears flowed from my eyes and would not stop. He squeezed my hand, and at one point opened his eyes for me. I have such a dull life I tried to just keep talking to him about things so he could hear my voice and hopefully know that I was beside him... and that I love him. That man has been like a father to me.
-My new boss hates me at work, and is going through the steps to have me fired (which I have a pretty good lawsuit due to the fact I'm really good at what I do and this is completely unjust)
-the one person... I've ever TRUELY loved unconditionally, and with all my heart... is the ONLY fucking person in my life that has even offered some modicomb of support...he can't even help because now I hurt for what I lost before... what I'll never have again, and now I feel as if I have lost it all over again. I have tried so vainly to get over you... I have tried so desperately to replace you... and no no avail. I'm to live with the knowledge of everything I belived in with you... and know that I shall never have that again. And right now I would give ANYTHING just to have you hold me. I need you.
-My mother and Jacob will be down... to add to my greif...
-I'm trying to stay strong for my grandmother... but more and more I'm finding it harder and harder to even get out of bed... and why I'm in bed makes no sense as I can't sleep...
Release me from this pain... please God send me the half of myself that is missing, I really need to be held right now. I need someone to complete me right now because I feel so empty and alone. I can't go on like this, I really desperately need someone to take care of me right now. Please God... offer me some comfort and mercy?