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I wish I had somewhere I could deposit my cats for 2 or 3 weeks. Somewhere they would be safe, loved, and taken care of. At least taken care of. Yes, I could leave them at a kennel, but that isn't nice to do to cats.
I want to just get in my car and drive. I have it all planned out, what I would take, the direction I would go.
Ryan and I have a wedding to attend in Seattle next month, maybe I'll just stay in that vicinity at that point, that way we have a car and we don't have to buy me a ticket.
Either way, I want to go. Now.
I need to get away from my sister. From my mother. Show them how much I do around here. I don't want to be here.
I want to disappear.
But I have applied for internships out of state, no one has replied for those yet.
Someone donate money. If every one of my friends gave me $15, I could go all the way to Alaska, I think, before I ran out of cash.
But first, I must find a place for the cats.
In other news as to what I want: I want to get married. I want children.
I want to stay home and take care of my children and cook all day.
I want to travel. I want a horse. I want a motorcycle. I want to be free from my mother.
How many of these are possible? I don't know, but I want to be married within the next 2 years, I want children within the next 4. Really, I want a kid now. My body is screaming for one. I want one. Really bad.
But my brain tells me it isn't the right time. I need to graduate. I need a stable home, the financial stability, and a husband. I want to do this right.
Time to go brood in my room.
~JR
I want to just get in my car and drive. I have it all planned out, what I would take, the direction I would go.
Ryan and I have a wedding to attend in Seattle next month, maybe I'll just stay in that vicinity at that point, that way we have a car and we don't have to buy me a ticket.
Either way, I want to go. Now.
I need to get away from my sister. From my mother. Show them how much I do around here. I don't want to be here.
I want to disappear.
But I have applied for internships out of state, no one has replied for those yet.
Someone donate money. If every one of my friends gave me $15, I could go all the way to Alaska, I think, before I ran out of cash.
But first, I must find a place for the cats.
In other news as to what I want: I want to get married. I want children.
I want to stay home and take care of my children and cook all day.
I want to travel. I want a horse. I want a motorcycle. I want to be free from my mother.
How many of these are possible? I don't know, but I want to be married within the next 2 years, I want children within the next 4. Really, I want a kid now. My body is screaming for one. I want one. Really bad.
But my brain tells me it isn't the right time. I need to graduate. I need a stable home, the financial stability, and a husband. I want to do this right.
Time to go brood in my room.
~JR