mmm, death
So.
I'm exhausted.
I'm sore.
I'm sick... ish.
I've been working out every night. At least a little bit. I think I may have been overdoing it. I don't have any days off from my ass and abs routine. legs and arms get a few days off each week, but everynight I do at least a few situps (with oblques) and ass stuff.
I'm going to look damn awesome in this halloween outfit if it kills me! Which it won't... but I have to reinstate my diet routine. Ryan will be giving me some protein powder to help out. Need to get rid of these damn Pecan Sandies... eating 4 a day will make most go stale...
Down to 135 fully clothed. I haven't been this thin since I was 16. I am fitting into pant sizes I've not been since Jr High School. Granted, I have been thinner than I am now since then, but very briefly. My tummy hasn't been this flat since Karate. And it's getting better.
Ashley doesn't like the idea, but he doesn't matter. Ryan matters, and Ryan likes it. I like it and I matter most! Erica's friend Tory keeps saying I'm so skinny every time she sees me not wearing scrubs (hard to tell how much I weigh with them on, eh?
School is officially kicking my ass. 18 credit hours, 7 tests in 8 days. ouchies. I have received grades on 2: 96% in Equine Science and 76% in Microbiology... I'm going for As and Bs on the others... 94% is an A in those classes. I need sleep. My health is failing. I've become a statistic. I've succumbed to things that would not affect me otherwise.
Oh, and did I mention I'm working, too? I've cut back to 15 hours a week because my school schedule is so demanding (30-33 hours of actual class time; so at least 40+ hours at school, 2-4 hours driving time, and 3-6 hours animal care... every week, before studying time is counted). However, my manager scheduled me for 25 hours this week... yeah... Still gotta tell him to choose a shift I'm not doing. the extra drive is still too much...
but my kitties are great! I love Bengaa and Chaos. He makes a great weight for curls (2 handed), and he puts up with it! :) He's like 8-9 lbs.
Tomorrow at this time makes it one year since I told Ryan I love him. <3333333 I'll head up there to be with him for the night. No, there won't be sex... he and I are going 46 days/nights without that, masturbation, porn, sexual jokes, and sexually charged music ("Love in This Club", "Touch my Body", etc). Deepening our bond and testing our will... lemme tell you, it's hard, but you all already knew I'm a total nympho. Lol. 15 more days...
~Jenna~
Oh, and I've been doing better with the whole "marraige" thing, brought it up accidentally a few times, but not too bad. That thing about the one year (dating) thing that he wanted to tell me? He's never made it to a year without being upset with the relationship or the girl in some way or she with it or him. SO YAY!
We still haven't really had a fight! :) Nothing really to fight about. Yes, we've been upset/frustrated with each other once in a while, but never really bad. I Love him more than words can say.
I'm exhausted.
I'm sore.
I'm sick... ish.
I've been working out every night. At least a little bit. I think I may have been overdoing it. I don't have any days off from my ass and abs routine. legs and arms get a few days off each week, but everynight I do at least a few situps (with oblques) and ass stuff.
I'm going to look damn awesome in this halloween outfit if it kills me! Which it won't... but I have to reinstate my diet routine. Ryan will be giving me some protein powder to help out. Need to get rid of these damn Pecan Sandies... eating 4 a day will make most go stale...
Down to 135 fully clothed. I haven't been this thin since I was 16. I am fitting into pant sizes I've not been since Jr High School. Granted, I have been thinner than I am now since then, but very briefly. My tummy hasn't been this flat since Karate. And it's getting better.
Ashley doesn't like the idea, but he doesn't matter. Ryan matters, and Ryan likes it. I like it and I matter most! Erica's friend Tory keeps saying I'm so skinny every time she sees me not wearing scrubs (hard to tell how much I weigh with them on, eh?
School is officially kicking my ass. 18 credit hours, 7 tests in 8 days. ouchies. I have received grades on 2: 96% in Equine Science and 76% in Microbiology... I'm going for As and Bs on the others... 94% is an A in those classes. I need sleep. My health is failing. I've become a statistic. I've succumbed to things that would not affect me otherwise.
Oh, and did I mention I'm working, too? I've cut back to 15 hours a week because my school schedule is so demanding (30-33 hours of actual class time; so at least 40+ hours at school, 2-4 hours driving time, and 3-6 hours animal care... every week, before studying time is counted). However, my manager scheduled me for 25 hours this week... yeah... Still gotta tell him to choose a shift I'm not doing. the extra drive is still too much...
but my kitties are great! I love Bengaa and Chaos. He makes a great weight for curls (2 handed), and he puts up with it! :) He's like 8-9 lbs.
Tomorrow at this time makes it one year since I told Ryan I love him. <3333333 I'll head up there to be with him for the night. No, there won't be sex... he and I are going 46 days/nights without that, masturbation, porn, sexual jokes, and sexually charged music ("Love in This Club", "Touch my Body", etc). Deepening our bond and testing our will... lemme tell you, it's hard, but you all already knew I'm a total nympho. Lol. 15 more days...
~Jenna~
Oh, and I've been doing better with the whole "marraige" thing, brought it up accidentally a few times, but not too bad. That thing about the one year (dating) thing that he wanted to tell me? He's never made it to a year without being upset with the relationship or the girl in some way or she with it or him. SO YAY!
We still haven't really had a fight! :) Nothing really to fight about. Yes, we've been upset/frustrated with each other once in a while, but never really bad. I Love him more than words can say.