CaRPe DieM...
So I’ve felt inspired to write in this thing for a few reasons. After reading/catching up on ppl’s lives and a few recent conversations w/ several ppl, I’ve felt the need to be more spontaneous. Sometimes I feel completely satisfied w/ my decisions in risk-taking b/c I’m being myself and enjoying it to the fullest. Other times I feel like I don’t seize the day enough; something will tell me I want to do/say a certain thing, (in whatever instance) but for one reason or another, I hold back. Depending on the situation there are a few possibilities I can think of why I restrain myself: out of fear, or believing it will fail in some way, or thinking it won’t be all it’s cracked up to be and I will be disappointed, or thinking it will lead to me regretting it later. I guess I just wish that @ times like these my brain would STFU and just let me live the life I’d like to lead. I over-contemplate in many aspects of my life and I think this is a double-edged sword. It can be a good thing for many reasons where one makes rash decisions out of anger, or being in the “heat of the moment”, or being in an extreme state of mind, and then severely regretting it afterwards. But in other cases.. why dwell on it instead of living it??
I talked about this one night w/ Kevin, he gave me a “homework assignment” (which I did not follow, haha) He said:
thenkevosaid: its 2:11... for the next 24 hours, i'd love for you to act on instinct.. that’s it. don’t analyze your decisions... don’t get all deep in thought... and don’t think about what MIGHT happen or could happen or anything... for the next day i want you to just DO.
LiLMuZikFReeK: lol.. oh man
thenkevosaid: then tell me how different your day was from today to tomorrow night.
I did not follow his advice, but I think I will one day, maybe for even longer than 24 hrs! It’s substantially good advice. Haha, that guy is funny, hangin out w/ him today was rather fun. Lots of *high 5ing* hahah. Next time I’m gonna throw his phone through a window though. =P
I hung out w/ Lissette today as well and talking w/ her was also extremely refreshing b/c me and her are so alike, it’s fortifying. It makes me feel like “Yes! I’m NOT the only one!” (That happens a loootttt w/ my punkin head, too) She’s super lucky b/c she works @ Starbucks and I think that is like the perfect kinda job for me, at least while I’m in school. I used to work in a coffee shop when my parents owned it and I really enjoyed that job. Yah, it got crazy busy, but for the most part it was still fun. I was a looootttt shyer back then, so I think now I would meet all kindsa great ppl and be able to put smiles on their faces just by being myself. =) Stupid knees! =( I think I might try to work there for the summer while I’m home anyways. It will only be a couple months, I could suck it up and take it like a man! =P I think it might be kinda cool. =) Anyhow, the rest of my inspired thoughts will be reserved for a future entry b/c now my pillows call my name.
Today was a success. =D
1) Hung out w/ Kevin for the SECOND time this month! (That’s a record for us, we usually go like 4+ months between visits, haha)
2) Hung out w/ Sonya, had dinner @ Strings (YUUMM!!) and took darling pix:
3) Hung out w/ Lissette and had some awesome convo after we watched “Failure to Launch” which means I enjoyed the hell out of watching this gorgeous man:
Now I’m satisfied w/ my day and a little happier that my spring break hasn’t been a complete disappointment. Tomorrow should also be good times b/c I get to see my buddy Derek and later on my sherona! W000! =) Buenas noches!
I talked about this one night w/ Kevin, he gave me a “homework assignment” (which I did not follow, haha) He said:
thenkevosaid: its 2:11... for the next 24 hours, i'd love for you to act on instinct.. that’s it. don’t analyze your decisions... don’t get all deep in thought... and don’t think about what MIGHT happen or could happen or anything... for the next day i want you to just DO.
LiLMuZikFReeK: lol.. oh man
thenkevosaid: then tell me how different your day was from today to tomorrow night.
I did not follow his advice, but I think I will one day, maybe for even longer than 24 hrs! It’s substantially good advice. Haha, that guy is funny, hangin out w/ him today was rather fun. Lots of *high 5ing* hahah. Next time I’m gonna throw his phone through a window though. =P
I hung out w/ Lissette today as well and talking w/ her was also extremely refreshing b/c me and her are so alike, it’s fortifying. It makes me feel like “Yes! I’m NOT the only one!” (That happens a loootttt w/ my punkin head, too) She’s super lucky b/c she works @ Starbucks and I think that is like the perfect kinda job for me, at least while I’m in school. I used to work in a coffee shop when my parents owned it and I really enjoyed that job. Yah, it got crazy busy, but for the most part it was still fun. I was a looootttt shyer back then, so I think now I would meet all kindsa great ppl and be able to put smiles on their faces just by being myself. =) Stupid knees! =( I think I might try to work there for the summer while I’m home anyways. It will only be a couple months, I could suck it up and take it like a man! =P I think it might be kinda cool. =) Anyhow, the rest of my inspired thoughts will be reserved for a future entry b/c now my pillows call my name.
Today was a success. =D
1) Hung out w/ Kevin for the SECOND time this month! (That’s a record for us, we usually go like 4+ months between visits, haha)
2) Hung out w/ Sonya, had dinner @ Strings (YUUMM!!) and took darling pix:
3) Hung out w/ Lissette and had some awesome convo after we watched “Failure to Launch” which means I enjoyed the hell out of watching this gorgeous man:
Now I’m satisfied w/ my day and a little happier that my spring break hasn’t been a complete disappointment. Tomorrow should also be good times b/c I get to see my buddy Derek and later on my sherona! W000! =) Buenas noches!