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i cant believe its that time of year again! i resuscitated my old bike, even though its a bitch to ride.. i've missed it. i really long for the warm nights of drinking outside rather than feeling a pressure to go to some night where i usually feel like an out of place loser. i dont keep with trends and stubbornly prefer to come across things on my own terms. i have no idea whats cool these days. i found an old magazine of estonian architecture from the early 80s on a particularly bleak day this week. i wonder if i can make that cool.. it made my day a whole lot better!
i had an anxiety attack a couple of nights ago and my back has been killing me. my stress is becoming physical.
a friend told me that i was pinch away from something completely new or very close to a transformation.
like the phoenix rising from the ashes!!!!!
she suggested that i go to a sweat lodge with her in a few weeks. let the healing begin.
this is my last lj post...i've wanted to phase it out for awhile. when i get high i become acutely aware of how calculated people's presence on the internet is. my close friends can roll their eyes at this point.. i delete/undelete myself a million times from everything. truth is the internet bugs me. a lot. it makes me feel like im trying too hard to make myself more interesting or important or something. and that i know too much about people without actually knowing them at all. and more so i hate it when people add me as a 'friend' and dont say hi to me in person. thats just stupid.
anyways, there are lots of places in this city to be..if you ever fancy my company, i'll meet you there!
bye.
i had an anxiety attack a couple of nights ago and my back has been killing me. my stress is becoming physical.
a friend told me that i was pinch away from something completely new or very close to a transformation.
like the phoenix rising from the ashes!!!!!
she suggested that i go to a sweat lodge with her in a few weeks. let the healing begin.
this is my last lj post...i've wanted to phase it out for awhile. when i get high i become acutely aware of how calculated people's presence on the internet is. my close friends can roll their eyes at this point.. i delete/undelete myself a million times from everything. truth is the internet bugs me. a lot. it makes me feel like im trying too hard to make myself more interesting or important or something. and that i know too much about people without actually knowing them at all. and more so i hate it when people add me as a 'friend' and dont say hi to me in person. thats just stupid.
anyways, there are lots of places in this city to be..if you ever fancy my company, i'll meet you there!
bye.