haaah....
***this is just for stress relief, you guys will probably find it boring, so you don't have to read it***
Hooray for lunch breaks!!
Gomen ne miina-san's! it's been pretty hectic here the last week or so i've been AWOL a bit!
So lately there was a death in my boss' family. Not fun in the least, and even though my boss is a complete and utter git, even he deserves sympathy in times like this. so i've been doing what i can to support him. which really means i've been running the business, and making the handouts for the funeral.
that seems to happen to me a lot - last time it was a dvd slideshow for a wake. i don't mind helping out, but it does get very sad looking at photos of people recently dead all the time; especially as they're not strangers either :< but if it can give the families some happiness during a very sad time, then i'll do it as many times as i have to >_<
But it's going to be so busy over the next week with the boss gone - there's only so much i can do (well, actually i can do everything except large payments, and even then i still do those sometimes, but they're what are needed the most usually).
it's not really funny, but lately everyone has been refering to me as "the boss lady" - even the father of my actual boss D: i don't want that kidna responsibility!! i have enough to deal with working in sales, in the cafe, doing all the office work, dealing with customer complaints/warranty issues/general helpfulness stuff/payments, doing half the accounting crap, dealing with suppliers and reps, doing the ordering and stock control, IT control, reports, staff rosters, staff issues, payroll, and everyhting else - i do NOT wanna be babysitting my boss as well >_< gackt-damn it! if it starts to get like that i may run away =_=;;;
and to top it all off, my boss has been loaning me out to the other business' in the complex for all their computer issues :O i mean thanks, really, it's not like i don't have enough to do here at work; but i still can't say no, because they're all really nice people and usually the problem is something simple like port recognition, proxy server issues or router troubles >_>;; if you can help, you should help, ne?? that's what being human is all about IMO.
geh.
i was talking to my parents last night, and saying how my back has been a lot worse recently - the pains that i used to get in my face when i had an 'attack' (if the pains got to my face, it was a bad sign, meant it was serious), are pretty much constant these days; there when i wake up, there when i go to sleep; and how i was finding even a 30-40 hour week at work difficult to deal with. I've also kinda hurt my hip which doesn't help. but isn't that pathetic?? i get exhausted after such a short work week >_< it makes me very frustrated! especially as it means i don't have the energy for anything else after i finish work, and i can't get as much done at work as i would like. mum wants me to quit work and just concentrate on my studies - or move down with her and dad and go to uni there. i think she wants me close so she can make sure i do everything my doctor tells me to. i've never really been one for that kinda thing - i hate being told what to do and i only listen to my mum and one of my ex's XD
bridie also told them that i'm having trouble moving and that the times when i can't breath have been getting more frequent. i haven't told anyone about the spasms; i can imagine how much they'd freak out if they found out my arms and legs were jerking randomly, or my hands would loose grip and i'd drop things, or how occasionally my entire body would go limp and jerky :P oh, and the dizzy spells have been getting worse too - i get them even when sitting down now, which is kinda scary. it's been a real pain trying to hide this all from my family, friends and co-workers, but i don't think i could deal with the lectures =_=;; i guess the reason i'm putting it all in here is because i can't really tell anyone, but it gets too stressful just to keep it all in.
mum made me promise to go see my doctor and go to see a specialist soon as well >_< and dad want's me to get the slow release morphine patches to help me deal with the pain, and also go get pain management lessons - but i can't see the point. i mean the pain won't go away, the nerves and my back aren't going to improve (quite the opposite really), and i don't wanna trash my liver with drugs. it's not going to kill me, so why bother worrying about it? what happens will happen, what matters is how you get on with your life after that.
I think my best friend has noticed some things, but he also knows that i don't want anyone to know so he's keeping it all to himself. i'm kinda glad that my sister is always there since he can't harass me if she is, BWAHAHAHA!
hhhaaaaa.....look like my lunchbreak is over, and i have a lot of work to do, so i'll continue this when i get home :P
Hooray for lunch breaks!!
Gomen ne miina-san's! it's been pretty hectic here the last week or so i've been AWOL a bit!
So lately there was a death in my boss' family. Not fun in the least, and even though my boss is a complete and utter git, even he deserves sympathy in times like this. so i've been doing what i can to support him. which really means i've been running the business, and making the handouts for the funeral.
that seems to happen to me a lot - last time it was a dvd slideshow for a wake. i don't mind helping out, but it does get very sad looking at photos of people recently dead all the time; especially as they're not strangers either :< but if it can give the families some happiness during a very sad time, then i'll do it as many times as i have to >_<
But it's going to be so busy over the next week with the boss gone - there's only so much i can do (well, actually i can do everything except large payments, and even then i still do those sometimes, but they're what are needed the most usually).
it's not really funny, but lately everyone has been refering to me as "the boss lady" - even the father of my actual boss D: i don't want that kidna responsibility!! i have enough to deal with working in sales, in the cafe, doing all the office work, dealing with customer complaints/warranty issues/general helpfulness stuff/payments, doing half the accounting crap, dealing with suppliers and reps, doing the ordering and stock control, IT control, reports, staff rosters, staff issues, payroll, and everyhting else - i do NOT wanna be babysitting my boss as well >_< gackt-damn it! if it starts to get like that i may run away =_=;;;
and to top it all off, my boss has been loaning me out to the other business' in the complex for all their computer issues :O i mean thanks, really, it's not like i don't have enough to do here at work; but i still can't say no, because they're all really nice people and usually the problem is something simple like port recognition, proxy server issues or router troubles >_>;; if you can help, you should help, ne?? that's what being human is all about IMO.
geh.
i was talking to my parents last night, and saying how my back has been a lot worse recently - the pains that i used to get in my face when i had an 'attack' (if the pains got to my face, it was a bad sign, meant it was serious), are pretty much constant these days; there when i wake up, there when i go to sleep; and how i was finding even a 30-40 hour week at work difficult to deal with. I've also kinda hurt my hip which doesn't help. but isn't that pathetic?? i get exhausted after such a short work week >_< it makes me very frustrated! especially as it means i don't have the energy for anything else after i finish work, and i can't get as much done at work as i would like. mum wants me to quit work and just concentrate on my studies - or move down with her and dad and go to uni there. i think she wants me close so she can make sure i do everything my doctor tells me to. i've never really been one for that kinda thing - i hate being told what to do and i only listen to my mum and one of my ex's XD
bridie also told them that i'm having trouble moving and that the times when i can't breath have been getting more frequent. i haven't told anyone about the spasms; i can imagine how much they'd freak out if they found out my arms and legs were jerking randomly, or my hands would loose grip and i'd drop things, or how occasionally my entire body would go limp and jerky :P oh, and the dizzy spells have been getting worse too - i get them even when sitting down now, which is kinda scary. it's been a real pain trying to hide this all from my family, friends and co-workers, but i don't think i could deal with the lectures =_=;; i guess the reason i'm putting it all in here is because i can't really tell anyone, but it gets too stressful just to keep it all in.
mum made me promise to go see my doctor and go to see a specialist soon as well >_< and dad want's me to get the slow release morphine patches to help me deal with the pain, and also go get pain management lessons - but i can't see the point. i mean the pain won't go away, the nerves and my back aren't going to improve (quite the opposite really), and i don't wanna trash my liver with drugs. it's not going to kill me, so why bother worrying about it? what happens will happen, what matters is how you get on with your life after that.
I think my best friend has noticed some things, but he also knows that i don't want anyone to know so he's keeping it all to himself. i'm kinda glad that my sister is always there since he can't harass me if she is, BWAHAHAHA!
hhhaaaaa.....look like my lunchbreak is over, and i have a lot of work to do, so i'll continue this when i get home :P