Jul 12, 2009 21:01
ugh, ever had a day where it all just....hits you? they suck don't they.
So i'm feelin' pretty flat atm - i'm dead tired, i'm suffering from the bane of all women, and after cleaning at work all day (homg the pain @_@ it's why i hate sundays!) i still had to drive to my nan's T_T i will admit though that i caved in and had a pair of panadol so i could get through work.
it really sucks - i love driving, i used to be able to drive for 10 - 12 hours without much of a break, but these days i can only drive 2-3 hours max a day, with LOTS of breaks D:
and so my nan lives 45 minutes away; but after about half an hour the pain has spread from my chest to my face, and i really need a break after the 45 minutes. we were at nan's for 3-4 hours, and then i drove home again, only after about 10 minutes i had the pain in my face again >_< that really sucked ass and i was so glad to get home and get outta the car @_@ the pain hasn't settled much, but at least i can zone out now without killing myself :P
and to top it all off, I helped nan clean and re-apply the gauzes to her wound; basically she's going into hospital tomorrow to learn how to do dialysis on her own. she'll be in there for 2 weeks, so this was the only chance we had to see her. In order to get the dialysis, she had to have a catheter inserted into her tummy, this was done 2-3 weeks ago and it's not fully healed yet so that was what i helped my nan with tonight. i know it'll make her feel so much better in the long run, but it's not very nice to see tubes and stuff coming out from a loved one's tummy, yano?
especially not my nan, since i'm really close to her - i spent as much time with my nan as i did with my parents when i was growing up.
it's days like these that i just wanna crawl into bed and never come out again except for pain killers and chocolate. and to kick my cats off my bed.
sorry for the depressing report today, just had to vent :P