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I deserve to be happy. I am finding the things that feed my happiness. I am learning to like myself. I'm learning to let things go, acknowledge that change takes time, and not be negative or too serious about everything. I'm noting trigger points that get me down/cause the spirals, and talking myself through them (BREATHE!).
Things that make me happy:
Cooking! I have really been loving cooking good healthy food. Relearning the joys of home cooking and how much flavor simple fruits and vegetables have. Staying away from candy however, is still a work in progress lol. It's a boredom food, a bad habit, a stress habit, and a crutch. I know its nothing but bad for me (especially since I have zero control over how much I eat once I get started...) but resisting is a battle in rewiring my habits. Trying to go 100% fruit when I need a quick fix, but Trader Joe's 99% fat free ground turkey (omg so good what) sauteed in coconut oil has been a surprisingly good substitute for that flavor burst I need when I get bored.
KICKBOXING/BOXING/EXERCISE! Endorphins yay! Taking out my aggression and wailing on a heavy bag with a mix of HIIT cardio intervals. I've been going to kickboxing/boxing cardio style training classes at a nearby gym that had a groupon deal and its been phenomenal (for the most part...there was one instructor who had super boring music and I couldn't get into his training/drills style). Debating whether to sign a membership though - enrollment fee $99 AND $85 a month :|. Might just sign up with a no-strings local gym to have at their heavy bag which is really what I need.
Also running to and from work (about 3 miles roundtrip?) and having small but noticeable improvements in my ability to run haha.
WORK ACCOMPLISHMENTS/FRIENDS! Throwing myself into work a lot more and just committing to being great at what I do/feel a sense of pride in my work and work-ethic. I received an amazing unexpected award for extra effort recently! I was assigned to a detail (basically my agency lent me out) with the Farmers Market Promotion Program grant review and it certainly had its ups and downs but I really did put my heart into it and committed to the projects. It was a complete surprise to get the recognition for it!
Also, I am heading up a 'new and emerging professionals' task-force/social-group for my agency! And my co-collab and our agency mentor are both fantastic ladies! So it should be pretty fun to get together and I'm pretty excited about what it could turn into.
Now that I'm back full-time with my own agency I'm also looking into doing more training, being better at communicating with our field offices/connecting with people, going out with co-workers.
Bottom line is really that this is only the life you get. Honestly I've been amazingly blessed with what I've been given to work with, so at this point all there is to do is do what I can to shape it to what I want it to be - if its sucks its because I'm making it suck.
Things that make me happy:
Cooking! I have really been loving cooking good healthy food. Relearning the joys of home cooking and how much flavor simple fruits and vegetables have. Staying away from candy however, is still a work in progress lol. It's a boredom food, a bad habit, a stress habit, and a crutch. I know its nothing but bad for me (especially since I have zero control over how much I eat once I get started...) but resisting is a battle in rewiring my habits. Trying to go 100% fruit when I need a quick fix, but Trader Joe's 99% fat free ground turkey (omg so good what) sauteed in coconut oil has been a surprisingly good substitute for that flavor burst I need when I get bored.
KICKBOXING/BOXING/EXERCISE! Endorphins yay! Taking out my aggression and wailing on a heavy bag with a mix of HIIT cardio intervals. I've been going to kickboxing/boxing cardio style training classes at a nearby gym that had a groupon deal and its been phenomenal (for the most part...there was one instructor who had super boring music and I couldn't get into his training/drills style). Debating whether to sign a membership though - enrollment fee $99 AND $85 a month :|. Might just sign up with a no-strings local gym to have at their heavy bag which is really what I need.
Also running to and from work (about 3 miles roundtrip?) and having small but noticeable improvements in my ability to run haha.
WORK ACCOMPLISHMENTS/FRIENDS! Throwing myself into work a lot more and just committing to being great at what I do/feel a sense of pride in my work and work-ethic. I received an amazing unexpected award for extra effort recently! I was assigned to a detail (basically my agency lent me out) with the Farmers Market Promotion Program grant review and it certainly had its ups and downs but I really did put my heart into it and committed to the projects. It was a complete surprise to get the recognition for it!
Also, I am heading up a 'new and emerging professionals' task-force/social-group for my agency! And my co-collab and our agency mentor are both fantastic ladies! So it should be pretty fun to get together and I'm pretty excited about what it could turn into.
Now that I'm back full-time with my own agency I'm also looking into doing more training, being better at communicating with our field offices/connecting with people, going out with co-workers.
Bottom line is really that this is only the life you get. Honestly I've been amazingly blessed with what I've been given to work with, so at this point all there is to do is do what I can to shape it to what I want it to be - if its sucks its because I'm making it suck.